PureInsight | January 24, 2017
[PureInsight.org] I did not cultivate to meet the standard and had stopped cultivating for a long time. My mother was illegally kidnapped by the Chinese State Security and police. They also took away all Master’s pictures, tens of Dafa books and other items. These were big losses. I felt miserable and regretted that I did not protect Fa and my fellow practitioner. When I reflected on the incidents, including the kidnapping of my mother, they all came from the problems of not having faith in Master and the Fa. At that time I used human notions and principles to resolve the problems. I did not understand the Fa well, and did not treat myself as a Dafa disciple and Master’s disciple. It was sad that I took over one year to understand the problems.
After my mother was illegally l kidnapped, I did not dare to come out and was afraid to be kidnapped too. My child was just born. There were a lot of human notions and selfishness in me. The local coordinator and some practitioners came and shared experience with me. They studied Fa with me, and they encouraged me to come out and ask for my mother back. There were still a lot of fear and negative thoughts in my mind. “Fear can cause one to make mistakes, and fear can cause one to lose a predestined opportunity. Fear is a death trap on a human being’s journey toward divinity.” (From Falun Dafa – The Essentials of Diligent Progress Vol III – Pass the Deadly Test) “If you can let go of life and death, you’re a God; if you can’t let go of life and death, you’re a human.” (From Falun Dafa - Lectures in the United States – Teaching the Fa in New York) The lives of old cosmos were selfishness and fear since they did not want to get hurt, and they wanted to protect themselves. Though I wanted to come out of the old cosmos, then I had to get rid of this thought. Thousands of thousands of years of waiting to become Dafa disciples, we had been through many tribulations.
Fear was the evil being in our dimension. I must tell myself fear was not me. They were facing the disintegration and elimination since the progress of the Fa rectification. Who frightened who! Human world was like a dream, and it passed away in a second. If you did not want to come out, you would not want the future. “I am rooted in the universe. If anyone could harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe.” (From Zhuan Falun) Let’s go! Keep my righteous thoughts strong. Even though I had a little bit relaxed, I would not dare to go. When I encountered the Chinese State of Security staff in a public transportation, I felt my body was really light and became big. There was a Fa in my mind. “Rectifying Fa as I go, penetrating all layers of the cosmos.” (From Hong Yin III - Rectifying the Fa) According to the motivation of clarifying the truth to save sentient beings, I walked into the State Security building. I told myself that Master was next to me to protect disciple, and I was not afraid. I walked in the building with my sister. The officers looked very furious, and then they did not say a word. Sometimes they listened a little bit, but sometimes they were like frozen. There were a lot of fellow practitioners sending forth righteous thoughts outside, and I felt I was engulfed with energy. When I was in a public transportation on my way home, I felt the evils could not move me again.
After I came back, a fellow practitioner decided to post the incident to disclose the abduction of my mother by the evils. My heart was not steady. Once the incident was posted, the evils knew I was the one who did that. If I did not do it, I felt it was wrong. Even though I did, I was scared. When I hesitated, the fellow practitioner had already posted it. My two older sisters who were not practitioners reprimanded me over the phone after they had seen the post. They talked a lot of stuff to scare me. I was not scared at first. Now there was pressure coming to me suddenly. What would happen? Afterward, I studied the Fa and found that only evils were afraid of letting people know the truth, not Dafa disciples. Suddenly I felt much relaxed. After a while, a fellow practitioner asked me to disclose all cases of the persecutions which happened in the past. I had bad thoughts at that time, and my body had the symptoms of flu. I knew that it was from the evils. That was why I had those reactions. Therefore, I should not be afraid. The people who said that were ordinary people, not Master. What I did was confirmed by Master. That was right. Since I had Master to make the decision, I would not have anything to be afraid of. Fa was already there to guide me. It was the question if I wanted to walk forward bravely or not? It was the reflection of the belief in what Master said was true or not. What evils said was not right, and all Master said was right. After the posting, everything was peaceful, and my heart was peaceful too. Who were the important people? Those were illusion.
When I was asking people to sign the petition for my mother’s case, two practitioners were illegally abducted. Our car was also detained. What should I do? I had gone through a lot of tribulation. This was the hard one. However, my older sister and I were studying the Fa, and we learned that Master said in Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting, “The bigger you perceive the challenges to be, the harder things will be to carry out, since “the appearance stems from the mind.” And so the task will become increasingly burdensome. When I say “the appearance stems from the mind,” by that I also mean that the difficulty stems from your overstating the importance of the matter itself and seeing yourself in a lesser light. Don’t take any such things to be a big deal, for with something as significant as saving sentient beings you should just do what you are supposed to do, going about it in a composed manner. When you encounter things that don’t sound so good or that aren’t what you hoped for, don’t take it to heart, and just nobly and confidently do what you are supposed to. If you don’t let the evil’s interference sway you, bad factors won’t arise from you, the evil will become trivial, you will become towering and massive, and your righteous thoughts will be ample. That’s truly the case.” When we went to the State Security Office, the security guards saw us there. They took out the petitions and the files of the practitioners who had been there for many times. They asked for the owner and the driver of the car to show up there, otherwise it would not be returned. They knew the practitioners’ names who had been sentenced for years, and where they lived. It made me feel that I would be arrested right away. The security office phones kept ringing. Those phone calls were from the practitioners. The security guards were angry and they could not stand still.
I said, “Do you know what is good to you? They do not want you to commit crimes, otherwise who will call you?” The security guards did not say a word. When my older sister and I went home, we told the fellow practitioners about this. Of course, we did not admit this, and we looked inward. I found out I had an attachment of relying on others. I had some thoughts of admitting the persecutions before, but I did not eliminate those at that time. Also, I did not give up ego and neither were many practitioners. We did not have the intentions to save people at that time, and we only wanted to have our car back. One of the fellow practitioners said that if we only wanted the car, then we should not come back. No matter what happened, it could not change Dafa disciple’s principle. That was telling the truth. My older sister and I went there twice, and the sergeant of the State of Security intended to give our car back. Those two days were holidays, and I called the sergeant to greet him and ask about our car. He asked me to come in on Monday. He said he pitied me, and he let me have the car after he discussed with the department head. The next day, a fellow practitioner came over and said that the car was delivered to the city. This was a big case. Most of the fellow practitioners from other areas had already been arrested. The total number of the people arrested needed to be matched to the number of practitioners who had done the petitions. They still needed two more to match the number. My thoughts came out immediately that those two were my old sister and me, but I denied it right away. Because the information source was reliable, the fellow practitioner worried about us and wanted to remind us. She let us decide whether to go there or not.
I thought that Master might think us to be a person who always thought of others, and did not let them commit crime. Therefore what was good to others? What was truly to be responsible as a being? This was not the first time for me to contact the State of Security. I did not feel that way. The other side of these being who understood wanted to improve or expiate. This was not right if we only thought of ourselves and did not give them a chance. We needed to bless their thoughts of kindness, and did not deny it. After we had shared with other practitioners, they sent forth righteous thoughts for us and the State of Security too. We decided to go and get our car. When we got there, everything was successful. The sergeant called the police station to release the car. I also wanted to mention one thing. When I was in the police station, I saw my computer and other items. At that time there was nobody around. I took Master’s picture and sixteen lecture books with me. Though I did not have enough righteous thoughts, otherwise I would bring out more items. The car was back finally, and one practitioner was released. They did not look for the owner and the driver of the car anymore. Those files related to the practitioners were taken out, but none of the practitioners was arrested. All the illusions were gone. Master resolved this tribulation. Everything was up to Master. I thought of Master’s Fa of What is a Dafa Disciple, “The more hopeless things may seem, it’s possible hope will appear right before your eyes.” Even though I didn’t know what in front of me would be, I still kept going and thought of what Master’s need. Then there was a road ahead for me.
At the beginning I always felt my heart was empty. I needed to study the Fa more. I wanted to study the Fa the whole day. Later on, I read Master’s Fa of My Version of Stick Wake-up “Some people have family members who have been imprisoned in the persecution and are being persecuted, and yet instead of hurrying up and working along with everyone else to resist the persecution, stop the persecution, and lessen the persecution of your family members, you're talking about things like "studying the Fa at home" and you're still full of complaints about everything that [Dafa] students are doing. Did you know that when the persecution of your family members who have been imprisoned is lessened or stopped, it's the result of Dafa disciples exposing and shocking the evil beings while braving evil and danger to take action against the persecution? When they get out, how will you bear to face them? What have you done for them? ” I was waiting until I studied well, then I went. Therefore I did not study well. I knew it was my mistake. With the fellow practitioner’s help, my older sister and I gradually understood the Fa principles. Our fear became less. We could go by ourselves. Every time we came back and shared with the fellow practitioner. Our unrighteous thoughts and problems were corrected immediately. We cleansed our minds to save people.
During that time I had been writing a lot of letters to the Person-In-Charge of State of Security, Attorney General Office and Court. I used my real name to write those letters which stated that from the basic clarifying the truth to filing the lawsuits against Jiang Zemin. I could feel those people changed their attitude obviously. Sometimes I had bad thoughts. They found a lot of equipment from my house. My mother did not know how to use them, and they were mine obviously. I wrote those letters in this way that was too dangerous for me. This would expose me too much. I asked myself that why I did this? Did I do it right? I did this for their sake, and there was no way they did not feel it. I was their hopes. As a practitioner said, “I am one of the seeds that Master spreads.” At the important moment I needed to take responsibility. I had signed a vow to save my sentient beings and the State of Security before I came down to the human world. I had to tell them the truth. I did not want to think too much, and I let Master take care of me.
Since the lawsuits against Jiang, my older sister was illegally abducted a few days ago before my mother’s court case. The environment changed once again. The State of Security still wanted to find me. Everyone understood that this was the interference to the court case. We hired two lawyers because we wanted to speak Falun Gong legally. I spent the night to write the letters to the State of Security and Court, and I decided to deliver to them myself. Everything was an illusion. What I did was correct. Nobody could move me. Master said in Fa Teaching Given at the 2014 San Francisco Fa Conference, “Didn’t I say at the beginning of the persecution that just by staying unmoved you would be able to handle all situations?” No Matter what happened, I had to move forward. I could not return. Master said in Zhuan Falun, “When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” I asked my mother-in-law to baby sit my child. She did not want me to go. She said, “They are looking for you now, but you just go to them.” I told her, “I have to come back today. Don’t worry. I will call you once I get home.”
My mother-in-law knew she could not stop me, then she said, “You bring along your child. If they want to arrest you, they will not do it when they see you have a little child.” My mother-in-law stayed outside my house for a long time. She was really nervous, I felt some stress too. A fellow practitioner helped to send forth righteous thoughts. Another practitioner went to Procurator Office to deliver the letter with me. We also put letters on the doors of the State of Security staff’s house. When I got home, I called the sergeant and told him that I left a letter for him. During the conversation, he wanted me to show up on my mother’s court day. I was touched, but I felt afraid. At that time I even thought this Fa and everything were not real, apparently they were evils and crazy. There were a few local practitioners who were arrested during Jiang cases. I looked inward peacefully. Why did it happen? Master and all gods should protect us. This was the mighty thing in the universe. Why was I scared? Why did I feel I could not escape from the tribulations which were arranged by the old forces? I was afraid to turn on my mobile phone or send text messages. I did not feel safe at all.
A fellow practitioner let me read Master Fa at 20th Anniversary Fa Teaching, “When bad people in this world appear to be evil, and might act so ferocious, that’s because there are evil entities behind them propping them up. Eliminate those evil entities and that person wouldn’t be able to muster that ferocity anymore. If Dafa disciples can manage to pool their strength together in one concerted effort, and act with extremely strong righteous thoughts, think about it, that will truly amount to divine beings being present in this world. It would be simply terrifying to the evil!” “The evil people act as they do because evil is propping them up from behind. Yet you always look at how bad that person at the surface is, how evil he is, how that evil policeman is so this or that, or how somebody’s behavior is just so irrational. You always fix your gaze on the surface. I’ve always told you that this human body here is just like an article of clothing, and that what really controls a person is his soul—be it his master soul or subordinate soul. And it’s not just the soul that can control a person. There are all sorts of intelligent entities that can also control a human being. It is not the beings at the surface that are doing evil to Dafa disciples. When you have addressed the factors behind the scenes, take another look at the surface and see what happens. With no factors at work behind the scenes, a human being will do whatever you tell him to. You are a cultivator and someone with abilities, and you are a being who is walking the path to divinity. Whereas that being is an ordinary human, and he is powerless.”
I understood persecution was controlled in the other dimensions. Who was I? A Dafa disciple, Master Li Hongzhi’s disciple, a mighty being in the universe. Everything in Fa rectification followed Master’s requirements. Master did not recognize those who acted negatively and caused interference. They let all beings to commit crime to Dafa. This was not allowed by the righteous gods in the universe. I did not allow this too. Therefore we had to eliminate the evil elements which were controlled by the beings who committed crimes in other dimensions. I had a field in a certain surroundings, and I did not allow the evil elements to come in my field. I would correct myself if I was wrong. This was not related to them. Suddenly, I did not have any concepts of the old forces in my mind. There were only interference elements, which needed to be eliminated. They were looking for me. However, I wanted to find them. I was on my way home after I had experience sharing in a fellow practitioner’s house. I saw there was two characters “Righteous Thought” showing on an electronic screen unintentionally. I had thought that my eyesight was not clear. Normally there were no way the two characters showing on the electronic screen. I looked at the screen one more time to make sure they were the two characters. Although the characters were not big, they were tidy. I felt I had a mighty encouragement. Thanks you, Master!
When the trial started, I was standing outside the entrance of the court building. I saw the car of the State of Security stopped there. The head of the local State of Security and the staff sat inside the car. I was not moved. I am Master’s disciple. There were not any beings that were qualified to interfere, test or move me. Of course, I thought of these all in other dimensions. The staff of the State of Security saw me, but they did not take any action. There were practitioners who had already told them the truth. Practitioners invited them to attend the court as audience, and they also requested them to release my older sister to see her family. The security staff did not say any words.
During the trial, the prosecutor also mentioned that they found the equipment from the house of the defendant’s daughter. My mother did not know how to access Minghui website, and they just wanted to use this to fame us. These equipment were tools for saving people. The more we talked the more we saved people. They were in line with the Fa. I did not consent to the accusation. We should not deny the roads we had passed because of our attachments.
When we left after the trial, a fellow practitioner was arrested for taking photos. She was sent to the police station, and then she was handed to the State of Security. Since I missed my child, and I had not nurtured my child for two days already, I did not want to go to the State of Security. Then I did not save her actively. I blamed myself for not giving up life and death. I went to the State of Security next day, but she was under criminal detention. After we got inside, a person called the head of the department. He said that the practitioner was here. After a while, the sergeant came and talked to the family member. He asked the family member to go outside but asked me to stay. When we talked about suing Jiang, I told him we were victims, and we called and told the State of Security that we did not commit any crime. He called the police station to send some people over there. I thought I was Master’s disciple, and nobody was qualified to move me. They were not allowed to move me. Finally the head of the police station did not come, neither the other people too. Then the sergeant wrote down the records about me, and my heart was not moved too. I was still thinking nobody could touch me. Master was by my side, and there were gods around too. There was intensive power of belief without any doubt. The person did not take anything away. The sergeant said, “You have a little child, etc.” Master protected me again. This place was not the playground for the evils, where Dafa disciples displayed splendid.
It took three hours for the return trips to the place where my mother was detained from my house. I always thought of this poem in Hong Yin Vol. II.
Ten thousand miles I gallop, breaking demons’ battle array
Cutting down all dark minions, eliminating wicked deities
I heed not their thick fog or the gale winds they whip about
Mountain rains en route wash off dust from the expedition
September 2, 2003”
Master said in Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference, “When any being in this cosmos has enlightened to his Fa, his Fa-principles, or his Attainment Status—no matter at what level—he has to go through a truly serious test. This determines whether what he has enlightened to can hold ground in this cosmos, and it establishes his mighty virtue. ” Master’s Fa was like a guiding light to lead us the direction in the street at night. How did we change our minds, get up and walk down the street? It depended on whether we had our courage to walk the first step or not. That was who believed or not. The practitioner who had the righteous thought could walk to the end.
Master said in 20th Anniversary Fa Teaching, “I will tell you: cherish the path that you have traveled and what you’ve done, cherish all of the time you’ve spent validating the Fa. What has passed shall never return.”
I was very lucky to have the chance to do my best. Master still gave me chance to walk out of the old cosmos step by step. I really appreciated fellow practitioners’ co-operations, i.e. in and out of State of Security, requesting the release of the fellow practitioners, sending forth righteous thoughts, clarifying the truth, giving up their ego. They were involved in tests of life and death. Thanks you, master! I would become more awakened and walk the remaining path well.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/150760