PureInsight | December 30, 2002
All I have are my tears. I cannot face my past wrongdoings and omissions. When I think of Teacher, I feel ashamed of myself. I have been waiting for many lifetimes to acquire the Fa, but what have I done for my cultivation?
What on earth have I contributed to the Fa, or to my own cultivation? I have done so little. Teacher has done everything for me, to help me advance in my cultivation, while he expects nothing but my sincere heart. Teacher does everything for us and expects nothing in return. When I compare what I have done for the Fa and myself with what Teacher has done, I feel ashamed beyond description.
Countless sentient beings have been enormously blessed by the Fa because Teacher has endured unimaginable hardships and tribulations for all beings in the colossal firmament. As for me, what have I really done for sentient beings? Nothing. But Teacher gives us opportunities to establish our mighty virtue as Dafa disciples.
I am still full of shame. I feel unworthy of such honors. I cannot express the unparalleled benevolence of Teacher with all the words in my vocabulary.
I can still recall Teacher's clear, solemn voice at the Fa Conference in Switzerland. He said, "The reason I can free myself from this problem is that I'm not within it. I won't be like them, unable to disentangle myself. I'm able to disentangle myself, but the difficulty is extremely great—it's something none of you beings can imagine. I can give up to the greatest extent possible everything I have. I can thus resolve all of this. (Applause)" (From "Lecture at the Conference in Switzerland")
"I've given my utmost concern not just to you, but to all lives. I have almost depleted everything of mine for all lives." (From "Lecture at the Conference in Switzerland")
"But do you know how many things of mine have been incorporated into what you will have obtained?" (Applause) Of course, I don't want to talk about these things concerning me. I just want to tell you that you should cherish this undertaking that I, your master, am carrying out! You have to do well in cultivation. Don't miss this opportunity." (From "Lecture at the Conference in Switzerland")
What reason do I have to hesitate or delay in my cultivation? The best way to repay Teacher for what he has done and continues to do for us is to restore our pure heart by cultivating during the Fa-rectification. Even if we attain this goal, we can never truly repay Teacher for what he has done for us.
Fellow practitioners, let's strive forward vigorously and do better from now on!
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2002/11/23/19339.html
