Eliminating “Five Brain Tumors”

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Greetings to Master!

Greetings to fellow practitioners!

I am a Dafa disciple from Germany. I would like to share my cultivation experience.

I've been involved in a project for almost three years now. In accordance with my wish to assist Master in Fa-rectification and to save as many sentient beings as possible in the limited time remaining in the Fa-rectification process, Master compassionately arranged for me to work in this project. At the same time, this was also a perfect environment for me to make breakthroughs in cultivation and improve my xinxing.

In June 2025, I experienced an extremely uncomfortable state in my head. My head always felt heavy, as if I were wearing a thick air cap. Sometimes it was accompanied by headaches and I had no strength left. This state greatly affected my cultivation and work in the project nearly two weeks. Through studying the Fa, I knew that perhaps I had been stuck at one level for quite long and that it was time for me to improve my xinxing, improve my level, and look inward for the gaps in my cultivation. I looked inward over and over again, but that state did not go away.

Master once again compassionately enlightened me through a clear dream:

A doctor told me that I had five tumors in my brain and needed to go to the hospital for surgery to remove them. At that time, I seemed to be the class monitor. I asked my classmates if anyone would take over my position for a while so that I could go and remove the tumors in my brain. Everyone looked very worried about me, but I was very calm and reassured them: “I am a Dafa disciple. This is just a temporary incorrect state of mine. I will go and resolve it and return soon. I have Master and Dafa. Don't worry!”.

Waking up, I was shocked to realize that the five tumors in my brain were the death test that I had to overcome, the serious attachments that needed to be eliminated. So I was clear-headed and calmly wrote down each attachment I found, analyzed it, and dug deeper to dig up its roots from the postnatal notions that formed it:

Resentment

Master said in 2018 Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C., “When a person harbors resentment it’s because he has grown fond of hearing pleasant things and having things go well. And then when things don't go that way, he resents it.”

I am such a person, I often worry and get stressed easily if something seems to not go my way, causing obstacles to my work and possibly affecting the results of my work.

Because I am afraid of the hardship of having to handle many tasks in the team, I develop resentment when team members do not put their heart into the work on the project.

I often force myself to use very high standards and often impose those standards on others, resulting in resentment if they do not meet my standards. At the same time, I also transfer the pressure of work onto others with my standards and do not put myself in their shoes to think for others.

Since then, my husband and I are practitioners working in the same project, and we have had many conflicts. Every time we argued about something, with resentment and anger, my body felt like it had been drained of all its vitality and energy. I had only worked for an hour, but I was exhausted as if I had worked for 10 hours.

But on the contrary, I did not like anyone saying that I had not done well. For example, if my husband said that my sharing or feedback was not kind enough to listen to, or if someone did not listen to or follow my suggestions. From then on, I realized why I received rejections from the content creators whom I invited to join GJW, it was for me to realize and cultivate away this kind of mindset.

Because I set high standards for myself, when I did not achieve the desired results, instead of looking inward first, I would immediately think of “who” and “why” to justify this result. If my efforts were not properly recognized, I would also be unhappy, resentful for being  treated unfairly.

Master taught in 2018 Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C., “I have always taught that a practitioner should look at things in the opposite way of how people normally do. When things go badly for you, you should see it as good, and understand that it’s meant to help you rise higher. [You should think,] “I’ve got to handle it well. This is a test for me to cultivate through, another test.” And when things go well for you, you should remind yourself, “I can’t get too happy. When all is well, I can’t improve and can easily slide downward.”

I also found that the root of this resentment is a very strong attachment to ego, not being able to accept that I am wrong, and easily falling into the trap of “right and wrong” of ordinary people. Always thinking that I am right is a barrier that prevents me from elevating my level and keeps me confined within my own standard of “right.”

After that, I not only sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate this substance of resentment, I also had to uproot it, which was the notions of self-centeredness and selfishness that had been formed over a long period of time, and other branches such as fear of suffering, fear of failure, loss of face, etc.

Through studying the Fa, I understood that resentment and compassion are two things that cannot exist at the same time in a true cultivator. One will eliminate the other linearly, and only by eliminating resentment can one cultivate compassion and save people. So, isn’t that resentment the fundamental reason why my work results and my effectiveness in saving people are not good?

Jealousy

Since participating in the GJW project, I often feel miserable and helpless because I cannot get rid of this attachment, it is like a giant granite mountain that cannot be broken through. At the same time, I also realized that the cunning mind that covers up this attachment: I often share with fellow practitioners that perhaps in our previous lives (me and the person I am jealous of) we had a debt karma from our previous lives, so this life was arranged for us to resolve it.

Because I clearly realize that jealousy is a very bad attachment that cultivators must definitely get rid of, I myself also despise other‘s jealous behavior, so I do not dare and do not want to admit that I have it, so when I try to look inward, instead of digging deep to find out which postnatal notion of mine has formed this attachment, I look for excuses to appease it, trying to maintain the image of me as a good cultivator, I do not have this jealousy.

Every time I felt miserable because I could not overcome this jealousy-based mentality, could not get rid of it, and could not reduce it when I sent forth righteous thoughts, I asked Master for help. Master compassionately enlightened me. Every time I studied the Fa, I would come across a Fa-teaching passage about jealousy or enlightened me through the sharing of fellow practitioners.

After concentrating on studying the Fa, I calmed down and recalled my life from childhood and adulthood. I was always placed in the same situation - the situation was that I always had a “competitor” since I was a child. These “competitors” were my sister, my close friend during high school, a close friend in university, a close colleague. I always had to listen to the comparisons and expectations of my parents, relatives, teacher, boss and people around me towards these “competitors”.

The competitive mentality, proving oneself, wanting to be superior to others, wanting to win, wanting to be recognized, admired, ... these things are like a drug that makes the addict poisoned and creates fantasies, illusions about feeling comfortable. They are the catalysts that strengthen and energize the jealousy to become stronger.

Over a long period of time, these acquired notions are like thick layers of dust, layer after layer filling up my innate self, directing me how to perceive and consider the problem, be jealous naturally, without realizing it. Or when I realized it, I still didn't want to admit it, or I would feel disgusted with myself because I couldn't get rid of it. Sharing this with my husband, he told me, "Don't hate yourself for that, because it (the jealousy) is not you, it's just something that wants to cling to you." Perhaps Master enlightened me through my husband's words. Thank you Master!

I need to cherish myself and others as well, although I have not cultivated well, I will be determined to cultivate to the end to eliminate this jealousy. After writing this sharing, my heart suddenly felt so light like a balloon.

From the bottom of my heart, I no longer see my sisters, classmates, colleagues, and fellow practitioners in the project as competitors, but I truly feel very loving, very precious, very grateful, and truly happy for the achievements they have.

Show-off Mentality

This mentality manifests itself in my liking for difficult, challenging, groundbreaking, and pioneering work.

This is like a big rock blocking my path of cultivation within the One Body. In a project, if everyone is doing the same thing, I will automatically want to separate myself to do another work that I think is groundbreaking and good for the overall situation. In the end, instead of cooperating to put Dafa in a key position, I put my own abilities in a key position. This is so far contrary to the Fa, that I am already falling into a dangerous state:

Master said in Zhuan Falun, “Only through adhering to Dafa can one be truly right. Whether it is your supernormal abilities or your Unlocking of Gong, you achieve them through practicing cultivation in Dafa. If you put Dafa in a secondary place and put your supernatural powers in the primary place, or as an enlightened person you believe that what you understand one way or another is correct, or if you even regard yourself as being great and beyond Dafa, I would say that you have already started to stumble. It would be dangerous and you would become ever worse.”

Through studying the Fa, I have come to realize that in order to avoid showing off, I have to remind myself of my mission: why am I here, who am I, what am I doing for the ultimate purpose, is the basis of what I do selfish or altruistic, am I really assisting Master, what does Master require of a Dafa disciple, etc.

The Attachment of Seeking Fame and Saving Face

This attachment is expressed in the fact that I want to feel proud of my family, relatives such as husband, children, parents, siblings to become the image that I want. I like to share with others about them if they have something good and feel proud because I have relatives like that.

Because of this, I often correct others, often look at their not good sides to "correct" them, my words often quote from the Fa to prove that I am always in the Fa, while they (the person I want to change) are outside the Fa to increase the prestige and persuasiveness of my words/feedback. From there, I realized that it is the root of other attachments such as criticism, judgment, uncompassionate, impatience and not caring about the feelings of others.

Finally, through studying the Fa, I realized that I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, a title that even divines cannot have, so what other title do I need in this human world? I am determined to let it go and be worthy of this honored title. What a Dafa disciple should do is to validate the Fa, validate the beauty of Dafa so that sentient beings have a chance to be saved.

Attachment to Family Affection

It‘s hard for me to save money. If I have money, I like to buy gifts, or generously spend it on my family‘s members, relatives and friends in exchange for their love and affection for me.

If I don’t have money to buy gifts, I will cook this or that for them so that others can enjoy my food, like my cooking which mostly takes up a lot of my precious time for the three things.

My heart is moved when I see my husband and children encountering problems in cultivation, study, work, and social relationships.

Through studying the Fa, I have come to realize that being compassionate to others is not about providing people with material things, but about validating the beauty of Dafa and the qualities of a Dafa disciple through treating others with love, truthfulness, kindness, compassion, patience, and forgiveness, and looking at their positive points.

After three days of continuously looking inward and intensively sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the bad substances that came from the attachments I found, my head gradually became lighter and completely overcame the state of heaviness and headache. Not only my head, but my whole body also felt extremely light and refreshed and was full of vitality. It was Master who helped me eliminate these tumors of attachment when I truly looked inward and truly cultivated myself.

At this time, my wisdom seemed to be opened, I found some solutions to improve my group's cultivation state and improve the efficiency of the project work. Thanks to that, within the next two months, the results that my team and I received also increased significantly (two times higher than the results of the previous months).

While writing this sharing, my heart was filled with indescribable gratitude towards Master who has always been compassionate and tolerant in saving a disciple like me. I know that I am still far from reaching the consummation standard of a cultivator that Master requires, but with my vow, I will never give up and firmly follow Master on the remaining journey.

I also feel grateful to fellow practitioners in the project, especially my husband, who has played different roles to help me eliminate karma, constantly helping me recognize and eliminate attachments and selfish notions that have affected my state of self-cultivation, improving my xinxing, and saving people.

Finally, in order to thoroughly eliminate any attachments, I must always remember Master’s teachings in Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature from Essentials for Further Advancement, “I also want to tell you that your nature in the past was actually based on egotism and selfishness. From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism. So from now on, whatever you do or whatever you say, you must consider others—or even future generations—along with Dafa’s eternal stability.”

The above is my cultivation understanding at my current cultivation level, I hope fellow practitioners will kindly point out anything that is not in accordance with the Fa.

Thank you Master!

Thank you fellow practitioners!

He Shi!

Chinese version: https://www.zhengjian.org/node/299494