PureInsight | October 15, 2018
[PureInsight.org] In less than 20 days, I fell down twice. The first was on the pedestrian walkway to the state capitol building. I was going to participate in a hearing for a resolution passed by the state Senate on stopping the CCP’s live organ harvesting of Falun Gong practitioners. I fell on all fours and flat on my face. The other was at a University hall. I was going to the graduation ceremony of a famous university to clarify the truth to Chinese people living in the USA. This time, I fell in the hall and on my back. My falls made lots of people laugh. Of course, some westerners worried about me; one lady extended her hand to help me up, which I really appreciated.
Within 20 days, I had fallen down twice; I wondered what this could mean? Master told us in Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles, “From the day that a Dafa disciple takes up cultivation his whole life is rearranged. In other words, this life of yours is now the life of a cultivator. Nothing is by chance anymore, and nothing will happen just by chance. Everything on your life's journey is directly related to your improvement and cultivation.” I believe that nothing is accidental in cultivation; thus, I should think about this matter seriously.
Before my first fall, I was thinking that the resolution would be passed because a previous hearing in the State House was successful. I thought it would be quite nice if the same project could be passed after undergoing hearing in the state Senate. I also believed I would have my own share of this success. Then, without noticing the uneven road, I strode forward and fell on the ground. After thinking carefully, a found the hidden attachment to validating myself. It’s a bad and filthy attachment, and in actuality it’s a manifestation of selfishness. As a cultivator, I should only do well what I need to do, gaining naturally without pursuit. Master said Zhuan Falun, “You’re always wanting to get things. Are you coming here just for that? My Law Bodies in other dimensions know your every thought, since the concepts of the two space-times are different. Looked at in another dimension, the formation of your thoughts is an extremely slow process, and they know your thoughts even before you think. So you should put a stop to all your wrong thoughts. Buddhists talk about karmic relationship—we’re all what we are because of karmic relationship. So, if you obtain it, then maybe you’re supposed to obtain it. That’s why you should cherish it, and shouldn’t want things.”
Before my second accident, I was thinking about how great it would be if we could do more truth clarification and save more people at an event as large-scale as this. I ignored the overall coordination and only paid attention to my own performance. This caused six fellow practitioners to miss the opportunity to clarify the truth because they couldn’t find the address. Apparently I fell because it was slippery. “Slippery” can be interpreted as being cunning in Chinese. Thinking carefully, I found I had attachment of showing off, a subtle lust attachment, as well as an attachment to jealousy. For example, I was thinking, “Don’t think that you will arrive faster than us because you are riding a car and we are riding a bus.” I was jealous of the practitioners riding a car, and in the end they couldn’t even find the address. It was just as Master said in Zhuan Falun, “The issue of jealousy is very serious as it directly involves the matter of whether you can complete cultivation practice. If jealousy is not abolished, everything that you have cultivated will become fragile. There is this rule: If in the course of cultivation practice jealousy is not given up, one will not attain Right Fruit—absolutely not.”
I couldn’t find these attachments during twenty years of cultivation, but they were exposed clearly here. Master told us in Fa Teaching at the New York Fa Conference on the Twenty-Fifth Anniversary of Dafa’s Introduction to the Public, “You must first cultivate yourself well, only then can you fulfill your historic mission. Therefore, in the entire process of saving sentient beings and validating Dafa, you cannot neglect your own cultivation. So in cultivation you must be serious, and that is the most basic guarantee for you as a cultivator.” After two “trips”, I enlightened to that cultivation is serious. It is not right to have human attachments. I must eliminate the attachments of showing off, jealousy, lust, and selfishness, and must truly cultivate. Otherwise, I’m just deceiving myself.
The above is my sharing. Please correct anything inappropriate.
Thank you Master, thank you fellow practitioners. Heshi.
Translated from http://www.zhengjian.org/node/243573