PureInsight | June 15, 2017
[PureInsight.org] After reading Minghui articles, I realized my previously unstable state was due to the attachment to comfort. Looking back, every once in a while I would feel tired and want to rest. I did not do the exercises daily. Sometimes I even stopped my alarm in the morning and continued to sleep because I thought I could do the exercises in the evening. My dimension was gradually controlled by something. Sometimes I was fairly clear and felt something wrong with myself, but I was not sure what it was. A voice told me I was doing the three things perfectly. Another voice told me it was because of my attachment to comfort. I could see the positive and negative thoughts were in a tug of war. The word “lazy” came to my mind when I did not want to do anything. Lazy meant negative thoughts bound my heart. I was so anxious because I knew I was in an incorrect state and wanted to get out of it.
After looking inwards calmly, I remembered I did the three things really well when I just obtained Fa. I relaxed a lot because my family environment became more and more flexible. Since I joined several projects, my time became very tight. My exercises and Fa study could not reach the standard. The relaxing state was because of a self-deceiving heart, which brought me a lot of excuses. Looking inwards, I found that my “diligent practice” was to improve myself rather than do what Master said in Zhuan Falun, “When a wise person hears the Tao, this person will practice it diligently.” In the winter, I was reluctant to leave my warm bed because I was afraid of cold and hardship. After carefully looking inward, I found I was controlled by a fake me. Master said in Zhuan Falun, “Some people’s master consciousnesses aren’t strong, and so they go along with the thought-karma and do bad things. They’re done for, and they fall. But most people can use their strong minds (their strong master consciousnesses) to get rid of it, to fight it. That shows that this guy can be saved, and that he can tell good from bad, and it means that his comprehension is good. My Law Bodies will help him remove most of that thought-karma. This situation is pretty common. When it comes up, it all depends on whether the person can overcome these bad thoughts. When you can stay steadfast we can eliminate karma.”
Master's lecture awakened me. I totally understood. I also recalled when I was in elementary school, my neighbor aunt always said I was a good kid because I cleaned the front door at 6 am every day. I knew the reason I got up that early was that I wanted praise. My morning exercises were not like what Master said in Zhuan Falun, “A practitioner believes he should only focus on practicing, without paying attention to obtaining gong.” Master also said in Determination of Essentials for Further Advancement, “Cultivation is your own affair, and nobody else can do it for you. The teacher can only tell you the laws and principles on the surface. It is your own responsibility to cultivate your heart and mind, let go of your desires, attain wisdom, and eliminate confusion. If you take up this path out of some interest, your mind will definitely not be firm and you will definitely forget the fundamentals while living in human society. If you don’t firmly hold to your faith you will gain nothing in this life. No one knows when there will be another chance. It’s very hard!”
So praise was my impetus. I would feel unmotivated if I did not hear praise. Every once in a while, this state would recur. Through this sharing, I found the attachment to comfort, which hid attachments to fame and ordinary people’s leisure. These attachments wasted my time to save people. Master said in Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciples, “If you are still unclear about what a Fa-rectification disciple is, you won’t be able to step forward in the current tribulation, and you will be led by the human world’s pursuit of comfort to 'enlightenment' along an evil path. Master’s heart has always been pained by those who have fallen, and the majority were ruined by that pursuit.” I will use this section of the Fa to alert myself to cherish this cultivation environment and the wisdom Dafa gave us, do the three things better in order to live up to Master’s compassion, and do well at the final step of Fa-rectification.
Translated from http://www.zhengjian.org/node/157597