PureInsight | August 22, 2021
[PureInsight.org] I am a Dafa disciple who obtained the Fa before 1999. At that time, I was still young. Today, I am going to share my experience of surviving a sudden sickness karma in Fa-rectification practice with you.
About 10 years ago, a fellow practitioner close to me was persecuted by illness karma (this fellow practitioner later passed away from illness karma). At that time, many fellow practitioners participated in the rescue, and I was among them. I did not do any special rescue work but just helped that fellow practitioner in sending forth righteous thoughts and contacting more fellow practitioners to participate in the rescue. The night before my mother and I decided to visit that fellow practitioner, it was about 3 am in morning. I cannot remember the exact time. I woke up suddenly, my head buzzed, and the noise was loud. This noise sounded like Falun was cleaning up the evil. How could there be so much evil suddenly? I thought I should not sleep any longer, so I immediately sat up and sent forth righteous thoughts. Once I was sitting here, I did not feel very well on my heart, because it had a strong pounding that made me felt weak, so I had to lay on the head of my bed.
I have a very strong heart since I was a child, and I am the best at long-distance running in my physical classes at school. I can drink a lot of coffee. People with a bad heart cannot drink coffee. But at that time the illusion of ordinary people's heart disease suddenly appeared. I did not want to admit it, even if my behaviors should not match it, so I insisted on sitting up and sending forth righteous thoughts. First, I cleaned up my own space field, but the evil kept attacking my thoughts, and the thought of “I am dying” and other distracting thoughts appeared as well constantly. It was a really terrible stimulus in my mind. I could not recite the exercise formulas, so I switched to hold my palm erect. By holding my palm erect, I could recite the exercise formulas and feel slightly lessened attacking on my mind. However, another even worse phenomenon appeared. I felt cold starting from the top of my head and going down, even if my flesh became cold, just like when a person is about to die, the person’s body will become cold. This kind of cold slowly spread downwards. Ordinary people have a saying that as long as the cold reaches the knees, the person cannot be saved.
I insisted on sending forth righteous thoughts, and the evil kept reacting to unrighteous thoughts in my mind, such as: “I'm about to die”, “So-and-so fellow practitioner was in a labor camp with an illusion of illness. At that time, his body was cold from top to bottom, and he could not be saved”, “A fellow practitioner suddenly passed away at home, and there was no one in the house at the time. When the family came back, they found her dead long ago.” In this way, the unrighteous thoughts repeatedly reacted in my brain. Fortunately, I was so clear, I kept repelling it with righteous thoughts, strengthened my righteous thoughts, repeatedly recited the principle of Fa to deny the old forces, and firmly believed that Master would be nearby to bless me, so I should not be afraid. In this way, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts, but it didn't work. The cold slowly spread down from the forehead to the nose. Halfway through, I thought of waking up my mother (who is a fellow practitioner) sleeping next to me. However, at the time I worried she might be affectionate to me. Her affectionate would be another disadvantage to me, so I insisted on sending forth righteous thoughts by myself.
I had thought that I could not go to see a fellow practitioner in the illness karma tribulation. I was in such a situation. Probably, the cold would spread to my knee around 8 am or 9 am, so what could I do? Should I tell my mother? At that time, I was very unwilling, because I really wanted to visit that fellow practitioner. When I was thinking of it again, I was interfered with visiting that fellow practitioner. I found the right cause, which is the purpose of the evil, to stop me from visiting the fellow practitioner. The more the evil would like to stop me, the stronger I was insisting on helping the fellow practitioner. No matter what, I would not listen to the evil. Since sending forth righteous thoughts for myself did not work, I stopped and started to send forth righteous thoughts for the fellow practitioner. The evil was persecuting the fellow practitioner, so it should be eliminated. I did not care about my own situation anymore. Instead, I did my best to help the fellow practitioner and believed I would not die.
After turning into sending forth righteous thoughts to fellow practitioners, my body suddenly stopped getting cold and stopped abruptly. At that time, the cold already spread to my mouth, but it did not go down anymore. Since it did not go away completely, I was still not relaxing, so I continued to send forth righteous thoughts to fellow practitioner for about an hour. The cold part of my body gradually returned to normal body temperature. After a while, I felt better, and it did not get repeated. At this time the morning dawned, and my mother had already woken up. She saw I was sending forth righteous thoughts and did not disturb me. I fought fiercely with the evil in other dimensions for about 4 hours. Under the protection of Master’s compassion, I finally recovered. I went to visit the fellow practitioner as I had wished. After this sudden illness karma distribution, I deeply understood that it is not easy to practice in Fa-rectification. I also understood the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts. I was only 27 years old at the time, and I was so young, and I encountered such a thing. The evil will not treat us differently because we are young, and the standard of cultivation won't be lowered because of our young age.
After this incident, I looked inward and found that I had many shortcomings: 1. Although I obtained the Fa early, I still did not have the foundation of Fa-study and practical cultivation. I have been busy earning money and clinging to fame and fortune during these years of Fa-rectification practice. Sending forth less righteous thoughts means more evil accumulating in my space field at that time. 2. Do not know how to look inward and practice diligently. The other practitioners who participated in the rescue were fine. I was the only one getting into the situation. Because I have a strong attachment to this fellow practitioner who suffered sickness karma, and when I heard her sickness karma was serious, I cried. After crying for three days, I suppressed my sadness halfway through, but the evil still took advantage of it.
After that, I deeply realized the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts. I usually pay great attention to conjoin the hands to clean up my own problems. Basically, I have to clean my space field for more than one hour or two hours every day or every other day. I feel that studying the Fa well, doing the exercises well, and then sending forth righteous thoughts will be more powerful. Studying the Fa and doing the exercise less, sending forth righteous thoughts will be powerless.
In recent years, some fellow practitioners around me have passed away from sickness karma, and some have passed away suddenly. Whenever I heard such bad news from fellow practitioners, I thought of the tribulation I encountered. I have observed that most of the fellow practitioners who have passed away from sickness karma do very well in saving people. They all know that looking inward, their Xinxing is not that bad. Some fellow practitioners are very good in xinxing but something happened to them. Why? I found that although these fellow practitioners have a good xinxing, do well in saving people, and are firm in the Fa, they usually study the Fa loosely or follow the form of the Fa. They practice the meditation without the habit of practicing more or prolonging the practice time and sending forth less righteous thoughts. They could not keep up on studying the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts. The evil takes advantage of the small loophole in the mind of fellow practitioners and takes advantage of small things that they don't realize to persecute them.
I think Dafa disciples are different, carrying different bad materials or historical reasons, possibly having different wishes with different situations. So, you cannot compare with the other practitioners’ xinxing, Fa studying, exercising, and sending forth righteous thoughts. The other practitioners are fine, because indeed with different situations. Saving people itself may bring tribulations to our Fa-rectification practice, and the xinxing requirements may be stricter. We are still unable to see the truth of the matter, so we need to listen to Master’s words to do well on Fa-study, do more on Fa-study, do more on exercising, and prolong exercise time. We must pay attention to sending forth righteous thoughts and clear up our own problem. In this way, the evil in each layer of space is cleared in time, which reduces our loss and there may be no vicious tribulations.
The following is an excerpt from Master’s lecture of Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A. to encourage everyone, “Let me tell you, all those who remain and that can persecute Dafa and Dafa disciples are due to our students themselves. Students who haven't taken sending forth righteous thoughts seriously: the evil in the dimensions that you are supposed to shoulder and be responsible for has not been eliminated. That's the cause.” “How far a person wants to cultivate to and what realm a person wants to reach are his own business. Master can only tell you the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts.”
I learned the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts by studying Master's Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A. It's not that you can ignore sending forth righteous thoughts without being persecuted, because if you don't clean up your own space field, the evil in your space field may persecute fellow practitioners. Furthermore, before I thought that sending forth righteous thoughts is just to eliminate evil, but in fact sending forth righteous thoughts is also related to our own xinxing improvement.
Above is my understanding due to my current level. Please be compassionate to correct me if there is something incompatible in the Fa. Heshi!
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