PureInsight | June 21, 2004
[PureInsight.org] Jenny searched the Internet and found the free books and introduction to Falun Dafa online. She didn't understand some of the information, so she came to my clinic for answers. I tried to answer her questions the best I could, and then I asked why she suddenly became interested in Falun Dafa.
"I had a nightmare," said Jenny.
"I knew it was just a nightmare, but I am positive that it must have really occurred somewhere. In order to verify whether it was a dream, I even scratched off a chunk of mud with my fingers. But I was still not certain whether it was a dream because the mud felt so real in my hand. I still remember the scene clearly. I even remember the smell of the place."
"What did you dream about?"
"I accidentally fell into a huge mud pit. The mud pit was so deep that it was impossible to climb out. At first I found the dirty mud pit repulsive, but I soon got used to it. I saw that some people tried to climb up the wall, but all of them slid down when they got about half way up. Some people could not get out of the mud pit, so they dragged down those who tried to climb out. All of us fell into the mud pit because we had done something bad. We all deeply regretted our mistakes, but no one was able to get out of this pit. Some people almost succeeded, but they did not have the heart to leave their families behind, so they tried to pull them out and ended up falling back into the pit. Everyone blamed each other, and everyone was related. I even found many generations of families there. I wanted so much for it to be just a nightmare that I kept telling myself, 'Wake up! Wake up Now!' Fortunately, I woke up right away. It turned out to be just a nightmare… Or am I still in that nightmare?" Then Jenny pinched herself to make sure she was truly awake.
I didn't know what to say, so I just patiently listened to her story.
"The first thing I thought of doing after waking up was to come see you and to go look for the information about Falun Gong that you mentioned before. I once received a Falun Gong flyer at a practice site near the lake, and it contained a URL for the Falun Dafa website. So I went online to visit that website.
"I read a brief introduction to Falun Dafa and an explanation of cultivation. When you told me about the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Tolerance in the past, I felt they were wonderful but completely unattainable for me at the time. This time I read the introduction very carefully, and I felt these three words start to warm me up. I felt as if the sun was finally shining down on my heart and rescuing me from the dark. I realized that, if I start conducting myself according to the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Tolerance, I'll be able to get out of the mud pit and not fall back into it ever again."
After hearing her story, my heart went out to those people who have walked past Falun Dafa. Jenny is now enthusiastic about learning cultivation and Falun Dafa, but many people to whom I have offered free Falun Dafa flyers on the streets refused to take one. It was such a precious opportunity for those pedestrians to learn about Falun Dafa, but they just casually turned down the opportunity .
[Editor's Note: Previous installments in this series have described Jenny's recollections of her stepfather's and her ongoing anger toward him. The opinions expressed below are her own. To develop your own understanding of cultivation and Falun Dafa please read Falun Dafa's main text, Zhuan Falun]
Then resolution registered Jenny's face. "Now I know I should give up the idea of taking revenge on my stepfather. I know he will go to hell, and I don't want to go to hell with him. Perhaps I have done many bad things to him in my previous lives. Who knows? I have decided to cultivate myself according to Falun Dafa and eliminate my selfishness. I hope that one day I will attain a harmonious and tolerant frame of mind, and then I would like to solemnly tell my stepfather and all other people who abuse children: 'We have fallen down to the earth to pay back for our sins. Reincarnation really does exist, so for your own good you must stop doing things that violate the laws God has bestowed upon mankind and the laws of the mankind. Start over and improve yourself immediately!'"
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2003/6/19/22138.html