PureInsight | June 30, 2003
[PureInsight.org] Author's note: Nancy's case is true. Nancy's treatment is still ongoing, therefore the outcome is not yet known. From this case we can see the whole process of people's falling ill and the mode of treating diseases. It raises the question, who controls our lives and destinies? The author is chronicling Nancy's treatment process and would like to explore answers to this question with the readers.
Normally, Nancy's chemotherapy, which still continues, should have ended a long time ago. The odd thing is that neither Nancy nor her doctor knows when it will end. In cancer treatment, the duration of chemotherapy has a great impact on the patient's health. It even determines a patient's life span. Since nobody knows when it will end, Nancy believes something from other dimensions must be behind this.
Nancy recently received three cycles of chemotherapy. In those six weeks, medical accidents happened to her, one after another, and her she changed her doctors frequently. Nancy had to tell each new doctor every detail of her case history, the medications, doses and so on, like the way a professor teaches students. Even so, she could not avoid medical mishaps.
Nancy is at the crossroads of her life. She is in a dilemma: if she gives up chemotherapy, all her previous efforts and those of her doctors will have been wasted. [Editor's note: This is a dubious conclusion.] If she continues, no one knows what is going will happen. She came to tell me of her concerns.
"Doctor, if you were me, what would you do? Of course, I know you are never going to be me. Maybe you can never feel my pain. It is not your body. You will never feel the violent pain… "
I said nothing, listening her words silently.
"Does every cancer patient have to experience what I have experienced? I believe that some cancer patients died from medical mishaps rather than from tumor cells. A wrong diagnosis and incorrect therapeutic procedures could easily kill a patient. Some just gave up because they were disappointed with their doctors…"
I continued to listen to her.
"Nowadays, many doctors were medical students not long ago. They learned a lot of theories from textbooks, other than clinical techniques. Together with their overconfidence and not listening to patients, and the desire for money which pollutes peoples' souls, those doctors could possibly be inadvertent 'killing machines.' I trust you, because you have a very good moral standard. I had never heard any doctors talking about 'truthfulness,' 'compassion' and 'tolerance.' In the beginning I thought it was just propaganda. But in the past few years you kept telling me and reminding me. I told others about the three principles. Although I did not do well, I firmly believed that what you told me was absolutely right. The three principles are the ultimate truth in the universe.
But I do not understand why I still have so much trouble, since I also believe in 'truthfulness,' 'compassion' and 'tolerance.' Your health is excellent. Isn't it unfair?"
I smiled and said, "Nancy, you believe in the three principles, but have you been following them? You think the principles are good, but do you really accept them in you heart? If you really believe in and follow these three principles, why did you change doctors so many times?"
She thought a while and then told me, "When the nightmare is over, I will definitely cultivate my heart and practice with my incomplete body. Doctor, do you think that I still have chance?"
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2003/6/8/21979.html