PureInsight | February 5, 2002
When I came to work one morning, my manager immediately informed me that I needed to go to a certain department to receive an award. He said, 'Your paper received the third place award and you are the only prize winner from our department.' He tried to appear dignified, but could not contain his happiness. My heart was very calm. I had worked very hard on this technical paper and felt it was very good, but the competition had included numerous papers submitted by people from all over the company (there are over 100,000 people working in my company).
Although this award was good news, my manger didn't spread the news. It appeared that he was trying to handle this matter in a low-keyed manner. He just told me to collect my award in the morning.
I was quite busy in the morning and did not have time to go collect the award. Also, I did not feel the attachment of zealotry like everyday people. In the afternoon I had time to go. On the way there, I thought, "I cannot go back to my office through the main entrance as my award would be seen (a giant quilt made up of white silk worth a few hundred Yuan). It would be better if I took the back entrance as nobody was in my office. This way, no one would know that I had gotten an award." When I got there, it "happened" that no one was there, so I returned to my office. Before finishing work in the afternoon, I went back a second time. I was feeling quite happy since I could now take the award home without going back to the office. No one would know. As I was walking in the heavy snow and reciting the Fa rectification verses, I suddenly realized that not wanting to let others know about my award was actually a distorted notion.
Why shouldn't I collect the award in an up right and dignified way?
We all know that Chinese intellectuals exhibit a strong jealousy. I felt I could not collect the award in an upright and dignified way because I was afraid of inciting jealousy in others. Was I supporting this deviated notion in behaving this way? As a Fa rectification disciple, I was not only not rectifying it, but was endorsing it. Is this providing an excuse for these deviated notions to continue their existence in the minds of Dafa Disciples? Yes! Master told us that Dafa Disciples couldn't show off or seek fame and gain. But this was not a personal issue; this award was received due to hard work, while Dafa Disciples are being persecuted in China. Why should I be afraid to let people know? Wasn't it an opportunity to validate Dafa?
Once I started practicing Falun Dafa and behaved according to the universal principle of Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance, I became the youngest technical expert in my company in just one short year. Prior to July 1999, I received many awards, but after July 1999 I have been constantly followed and continuously investigated by government authorities. They have arrested me, searched my home, confiscated my computer, and kept my government issued ID card. I became destitute and homeless in Beijing. After I came back, I was suspended from my job and ordered to 'reflect on myself'. However, since the R&D project I was in charge of could not be delayed, my 'punishment' quietly ended. After July 1999, the evil forces have been totally out of control. In a country where politics overrides everything, I have not received any of the 'Model Employee Awards' that I had always received before. However, in our company, my papers always received the first place award every year due to my well-known contributions to scientific research. Amidst the persecution, it took great courage for my company to give the award to a Dafa Disciple.
Over the past two years, the lists of Awardees has always been printed and distributed to all levels and departments of the company. My name has always been listed at the top, which has caught the attention of the managers and over 3,000 staff in our company. Wasn't this a way of validating Dafa? Wasn't this a way of clarifying the truth to my colleagues?
There was an interesting story when my paper was first submitted. The company director looked at the name on the paper submitted and asked: 'Doesn't he practice Falun Gong? How can his paper be submitted to The Commission? This competition is very formal!' The staff in the Science Association replied that this was a technical paper and shouldn't be a problem. The director hesitated for a while and finally signed the approval. In other words, it was not easy to obtain the award this time. Why shouldn't I make full use of the opportunity?
After enlightening to this, I knew what I should do. The following morning, I received the award in front of the chairman of the Party for our organization (whom I have dealt with many times on the Falun Gong issue). After that, I brought the award back to the office in an upright and dignified manner. The news quickly spread. Looking at the smiling faces of the chairman and my colleagues, and without my saying anything, I knew that those fabricated reports shown on TV instantly disappeared like ashes flying away and smoke vanishing.
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http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2002/1/15/13352.html
