PureInsight | June 9, 2010
[PureInsight.org] While I sat in my car, I suddenly saw this image: there was a huge treasure tree in my dimension. Originally, when I decided to cultivate Falun Dafa, right at the moment when my Buddha-nature emerged, the tree bloomed with thousands of beautiful and magnificent flowers. They were all blooming at the same time. The beauty and magnificence were beyond description and imagination.
Sentient beings from all over the universe were filled to the brim with hope towards the tree. Perhaps it was because the flowers were so beautiful and rare, or perhaps because the sentient beings all looked forward to picking the fruit of the tree in the future so that they could obtain infinite fortune and happiness and their lives could last forever.
Every day whenever a thought flashed into my mind, I measured it by “Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance” to see whether the thought was right or wrong. During the heart-wrenching, agonizing process of removing attachments, whenever I removed one attachment, I saw one of the flowers immediately become assimilated to the Fa and turn into a holy fruit. Because this fruit had assimilated to “Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance,” it shone brightly in the universe. The Gods all cherished it.
While walking the path towards godhood, I came through, but only after falling down many times. After the start of the persecution, whether I could accomplish the things Master required us to do, whether I walked each step of my cultivation well, and my daily thoughts, they were all things that could impact whether my tree bore fruit. When I didn’t look within in the face of conflicts, or when I didn’t cultivate diligently, I saw flowers wither and fall. This was the scene that sentient beings and gods feared seeing the most.
Perhaps in the eyes of higher-level enlightened beings, if a holy flower can’t bear fruit, it means a life vanishes. This could bring horror, sadness and hopelessness to sentient beings. After I saw this, I wrote down “Falun Dafa is good,” and with my words and actions I promised the sentient beings that they didn’t need to worry. The strong sense of responsibility made me feel the honor and solemnity of being a Dafa disciple, and made me feel sacred and majestic to be associated with Dafa.
I started to understand that the number of fruits I could bear was the number of beings I could save. When I looked at those flowers that hadn’t turned into fruits, I knew I still had so many human attachments, but I was often satisfied that I participated in Fa-Rectification activities and was satisfied with what I had done. I didn’t think of those beings waiting anxiously for me.
Those withered flowers awakened me that I hadn’t done enough. My human attachments were the reason that many flowers still hadn’t borne fruit. I felt ashamed of myself because my sentient beings were anxiously waiting. I had let them down. I didn’t want those beings to be sad, so I said to them, “I will cultivate and look within more diligently. I will bear more holy fruits and you won’t have to worry anymore.”
Translated from: http://zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2010/3/29/65181.html