PureInsight | December 17, 2001
For quite some time, whenever I woke up early, my wife, who is also a Falun Dafa practitioner, would turn over to block me from getting up and then start to talk about her physical discomfort. At first, I just felt it was “strange,” and this thought covered up everything. Earlier, other practitioners told me that they had became to realize that the feeling of “strange” that Master discusses in Zhuan Falun is actually a kind of being that sometimes plays a demonic role in hindering a person from contemplating something further. Only recently, after I had resumed diligent advancement in the Fa and read on Clearwisdom about various manifesting forms of the demons and the old forces, I have come to clearly realize that the demons have utilized others or others’ demonic parts to drag me backward, exhausting and eroding my strength. Indeed they are poking into every nook and cranny. Doesn’t Master, by making use of the old forces and the demons’ stabbing attempts, want us to cultivate ourselves into beings as solid as diamond and attain perfection with no omission in our Buddha nature? In the past, I did not send forth righteous thoughts to eradicate it because I felt it was not worth it. But as soon as I saw it clearly, a righteous thought flashed towards it, shattering its body and bones into pieces.
There was another kind of demon that interfered with me when I studied or exercised. Now it does not even dare to approach me. It is just like what Master says in his Lectures in the United States, “It isn’t a demon itself, but it can play that role. But on the other hand, it also has the effect of strengthening your will. Don’t you need to cultivate your will? You need to strengthen your will, and restraining it is strengthening your will—it’s also cultivation. Feeling sleepy while doing the exercises is itself also an effect of thought karma.” Master teaches us to observe things dialectically.
When I recall why my cultivation slowed down recently, I feel mainly I failed to study the Fa attentively and slackened demands on myself, which cannot be forgiven. Master says in his Lecture at the Conference in New Zealand, “You can’t lose your diligence in cultivation. Remember this! Make sure to cultivate to the end!”
This is my personal experience that I am sharing with fellow practitioners to encourage us all and to seek advice.
Translated from:
http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2001/11/26/12625.html
