What I'll Leave Behind for My Children

Xiao Mei

PureInsight | April 5, 2004

[PureInsight.org] My English writing course was coming to an end. Our final assignment was to write a commentary after reading an essay; the essay was an introspective one. In the essay, the author was going through his father's belongings after his father passed away and discovered a pile of business cards from hotels all over the world. As he thought about how to deal with the pile of business cards, he wondered how his own children would deal with his belongings after he passed away. What would they keep and what would they discard? And how would they know which of his belongings was the most precious to him? The author sat quietly in his study and went through his own cherished belongings one by one. Each piece brought back memories of his life at various stages. In the end, the author sighed and realized that his cherished belongings represented who he was. But they also showed how lonely he was as he was the only person who knew the significance each piece carried. When he looked at his things, he would remember all the beautiful memories associated with the pieces. To him, those pieces were him, and he would always remember himself.

After reading this essay, I felt sympathy for the loneliness in each and every man's life. Life is short and no one can escape death. I then thought about how my children would handle my belongings after I pass away. If I get to tell them what the most precious thing to me is, I would undoubtedly tell them it's my diaries.

I started keeping a diary when I was a little girl. To this day, I have written more than 20 diaries. Among those are three diaries that I have written since I started cultivating in Falun Dafa. The diaries recorded my sad and happy moments as well as my feelings of love and anger. The most valuable passages in my diaries would have to be the parts related to my cultivation. I wrote down my reflections on life and the process of improving my moral standard. I wrote them with the utmost sincerity and a broad range of feelings.

If future generations of people by any chance remember that there once lived a woman named Mei and they want to learn more about her stories, my diaries will tell them because all my stories are in my diaries. In a sense, the diaries represent me because they will tell the readers about my life from the time when I was a young girl till now when I am a mother to two daughters. They will tell the readers how I went from a sentimental, weak woman to an upbeat and wise cultivator.

My two daughters would definitely learn some lessons about life from reading my diaries. At least I think they will feel grateful to me about one thing. That is after reading these diaries, hopefully they would understand how to love others with an altruistic heart, how to tolerate others with compassion, how to endure the hardship, and how to forgive those who have hurt you.

I believe that my children would also realize that having the chance to cultivate Falun Dafa is rare and precious. Only cultivators can understand and appreciate all the hardships and happiness that we experience as we upgrade ourselves with the passage of time. Although I regard my writing skills to be no better than that of an elementary school student, after I began to practice Falun Dafa, I have poured in the diaries all my compasssion towards the world's people, my celebration of friendship, my understanding of Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance, and most importantly my eternal gratitude toward Master Li.

As I wrote this article, tears streamed down my face. Because of my cultivation in Falun Dafa, I have come to understand so many wonderful things, and there are so many things that I want to write down so I can share them with my lovely children.

Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2003/12/16/24931.html

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