PureInsight | March 23, 2008
[PureInsight.org] (2008 Los Angeles Fahui)
I obtained the Fa in early 2003. After I read all of Master's lectures
on the website, I started my cultivation in the Fa-rectification
period. During trials and hardships, I have cultivated for 5 years
under Master's benevolence. Today, I feel very honored to stand in this
sacred hall, the Fa experience sharing conference, and share with you
my cultivation path.
Compared with a lot other practitioners, my path has been relatively
smooth. No earthshaking feats no moving story, rather I am saving
ordinary people in an ordinary way, following Master's guidance.
Before obtaining the Fa, I was always searching for the meaning of life
and the truth of the universe. Maybe it was due to some part of my
Buddha nature, among the lost I still knew there was a truth of the
universe. But what the truth was, I did not know. When I went to the
university, there were a lot of resources in the libraries. For two
years, whenever I had time, I would stay in the libraries and learn all
the knowledge that I wanted to know. But still I did not find the
highest truth that I was searching for.
In 2002 I was sent to study abroad. There was a Chinese library in the
school where I was. I saw "Teaching the Fa at the Assistants' Fa
Conference in Changchun" and "Explaining the Content of Falun Dafa."
After I read those two lectures, I felt there were much deeper meanings
in the lectures and they did not look like what Chinese media's
propaganda described. So I wanted to know more from Falun Dafa's
website. I still remember that day clearly. It was very sunny. In the
computing center, I opened Zhuan Falun
on the computer. After reading the first paragraph, my heart was
beating faster, I could not hold back my excitement. Suddenly, I came
to realize that this was what I had always been pursuing. I spent half
a day and read Zhuan Falun
from the beginning to the end. During the reading, my tears often came
down. After I finished the reading, I said to Master in my heart,
"Master, I want to be a person with good inborn quality."
After that, I spent a few days and read all of Master's lectures in
chronological order. Those days were like Master mentioned: my
improvement was like riding on a rocket. As I read along, my heart's
capacity was constantly expanding. I finally came to understand the
meaning of my coming to this world. I printed all of Master's lectures
and bound them into books. I downloaded all the audio and video
materials and had them copied to CDs. I started my cultivation in the
Fa-rectification period.
Since then I have only the thought of saving sentient beings and
validating Dafa. I remember Master's words, "I often say that if all a
person wants is the well-being of others and if this is without the
slightest personal motivation or personal understanding, what he says
will move the listener to tears." (Essentials For Further Advancement
--"Clearheadedness") People today are all waiting for us to save them,
especially those around us, and those who have predestined relationship
with us. First, I started to clarify truth to friends who were
overseas. Through email and face-to-face talk, I told them the
situation of the persecution against Dafa. After I connected with the
local exercise site, I was able to obtain some truth clarification
materials. At that time, I spent all my spare time studying the Fa
because I knew the situation I would to face when I went back to China.
I needed solid cultivation. But I was not worried about being
persecuted, because Master already said in the end of 2001, "Let me
tell you, all those who remain and that can persecute Dafa and Dafa
disciples are due to our students themselves." ("Fa-Lecture at the
Conference in Florida, U.S.A.") ")
Four months later I went back to China. The first thing after I went
back was to clarify truth to my teachers and classmates. Before I went
overseas I was a "pre-Communist Party member." According to the
requirement I had to write a report about my thinking. So I wrote in
the report the facts I learnt about the persecution against Falun Dafa.
During the weekly meetings, and the class meetings, I also talked about
the persecution against Dafa from various angles.
My teachers and classmates were all very surprised. But they have
always trusted me and they knew that I was doing this for their own
good. Still, the teachers who were in charge of students' affair often
came to talk to me. During every talk I took it as an opportunity for
them to listen to the truth. I let them watch the truth clarification
CDs I took from overseas, so they all knew the truth. But out of safety
considerations they hoped that I would not practice Falun Gong. In our
major, there was one student in the Master of Science program who
practiced Falun Gong and whose whereabouts were not known. I remember
the last time that teacher said to me: if you still practice Falun
Gong, we will cancel your Ph.D. qualification. I was silent for a
while, then I told him, "No matter what you will do to me, it is
impossible for me to give up Falun Dafa. This is the truth that I've
been searching for all my life. It is the meaning of my whole life. You
have thought of me highly, because you feel I have the heart to serve
the nation, for the people and for the world. But I want to tell you,
Falun Gong is the hope for the Chinese people. Only Falun Gong can
change China to be better. If it is for Falun Gong that I need to give
up something, I'll give it up without hesitation. The decision is on
your side." While saying that my eyes turned red. That teacher's eyes
were also red. From then on he never advised me to give up practicing
Falun Gong.
I only had limited truth clarification materials that I brought from
overseas. After I came back to China, I did not have the conditions to
make nor did I know how to make truth clarification materials. So I
wrote a public letter that talked about the Dafa's spreading and the
truth about the persecution, including Master's jingwen "Some Thoughts
of Mine." At that time I was not aware that I should not post and
distribute Master's lecture like that. I printed the letter out and
made copies in the printing shop. Then I posted it in classrooms and
some public locations, such as public parks and the like. At the
beginning of each semester, students needed to select courses so the
teachers would introduce their curricula in each classroom. So I would
put the truth clarification materials in all the desks in the classroom
and on the rostrum the night before. The next day I would go there and
check the results. On my way I would often see a student concentrating
on reading the truth clarification materials while walking out of the
building. At that time I often did those things together with a good
friend of mine.
I came back to China with several truth clarification CDs. Later, I
learned how to make CDs. I still remember the days when I wanted to
make a number of CDs before I went back to my hometown for the Chinese
New Year. I would stay late in a classroom for several days to make
copies of the CDs. At that time I did not have my own computer, so the
CD writer I bought was installed on the computer owned by the school.
After I came back to China, initially I did not know any practitioners.
Later, I thought there were so many practitioners before the
persecution, there must be some at the school. So I said to Master in
my heart: Master, please let me know one practitioner. A few days later
I went to an office building. One female teacher and I walked into the
elevator. I heard her singing a song. Isn't that "De Du"? I asked her,
"Are you singing De Du?" She immediately knew I was a Falun Gong
practitioner and so we came to know each other.
One of my friend's high school classmates also practiced Falun Gong.
With the friend's help we got to know each other. Later, we had various
opportunities to get in touch with several practitioners at various
universities. As the situation was improving, we formed a Fa study
group. Each of us had individual truth clarification material sites and
we so could make various truth clarification materials.
My locale for saving sentient beings and validating the Fa was mainly
focused on the universities and the nearby locations. After we made the
truth clarification materials, we would distribute it in various
students' dormitory buildings. Due to limited materials, we could not
distribute material to each dormitory, so we would put some materials
in every few dormitories. In our university there were a lot of
bicycles, so sometimes we would leave the materials in the bicycle's
directly front container, or in the drawers of the classrooms and
libraries. Sometimes we would leave materials in the teachers'
mailboxes or offices.
Another common method I used in the school is through the Question and
Answer sessions during class. There are various seminars at our school,
covering a lot of topics, and many people attend them. Clarifying truth
there, not only we could spread the truth to the audiences, but we
could also stimulate people to think and discuss it, to strengthen the
righteous field in the whole area. Once I remember He Zuoxiu came to
speak at a seminar. I thought it was a very good opportunity. I went to
the seminar, and during the whole seminar I constantly sent forth
righteous thoughts towards him. Later, during Question-and-Answer time,
I asked him: I have heard you are the brother-in-law of Luo Gan, and
you were instructed by Luo Gan and provoked the April 25th Falun Gong
petition incident, which directly lead to the persecution against Falun
Gong. I asked him wasf it was it true. He couldn't say anything for a
while, then answered, "Falun Gong participates in politics." After the
seminar was over, I went with other students, following him to the
place where he had parked his electric bicycle. I gave him one truth
clarification CD and told him, "I hope you will watch this CD. I want
to tell you, Falun Gong does not want to be involved in politics." He
didn't say anything but accepted the CD. Two students besides asked me,
"Why do you speak for Falun Gong?" So I walked with them for a while,
and clarified the truth to them. They knew the truth and later we
became good friends.
After this seminar, I was not very firm-footed. I was a bit worried
about whether trouble would happen to me. I told other practitioners
about this, asked them to send forth righteous thoughts for me. Two
days later, when I walked through the school entrance, I did find a
police car parked there. I was a little nervous, but then I thought
Dafa disciples clarify truth in a dignified manner, saving sentient
beings, so what should we be afraid of?
Master said, "The old forces don't dare to oppose our clarifying the
truth or saving sentient beings. What's key is to not let them take
advantage of the gaps in your state of mind when you do things."
("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Boston")
Maybe my thought of concern was not righteous and thus brought the
police car there, since it was my own pursuit. So I sent righteous
thoughts towards the police car while I walked by. The following days I
often purposely walked by that place to send righteous thoughts. A few
days later that police car left. On the surface nothing happened.
Another time, during the break time of a class, I walked outside and
passed a classroom. I found the head of the National Bureau of
Religion, Ye Xiaowen, was inside, talking about nation's religion
policy. I thought, wasn't I led by Master to this place to clarify the
truth? So I went into that classroom and, while listening, I sent
righteous thoughts. During the Question-Answer time, I stood up and
told him: "Many of my classmates have received the truth clarification
CDs about Falun Gong in their dormitories. We have seen the CDs. They
list a lot of evidence that show the Tiananmen Square Self-Immolation
was framed to impugn Falun Gong. Falun Gong teaches people to be a good
person. We all know that in China a lot of things are rather hard to
say. If that's the case, we sincerely hope they, as the state's
officials, especially the senior officials, would really find out the
people's thinking, considering it from the true interest of our nation
and people, for the future of our Chinese nation, and reexamine this
issue."
After hearing this, Ye Xiaowen mumbled, "Only people at Peking University would dare to bring this issue up."
This clarifying truth method sometimes has effects beyond my
expectations. In 2007, I contacted a classmate on a BBS for something.
We briefly introduced ourselves to each other. She told me she had some
impression of me. I was surprised and asked her what kind of impression
she had. She asked if I was the one who clarified the truth about Falun
Gong during a course three years ago. When I heard that, at that moment
I was very moved and I further understood that all sentient beings come
for the Fa. That course was a general one that can be selected by any
student in the school. Over 400 students sat in that course. It was
over for 3 years, I had already forgotten it, yet someone I did not
know still remembered it.
We also collected the telephone numbers and email address of the schools and sent them to Minghui,
to cooperate with the overseas truth clarification. Dafa disciples are
one body. When overseas and mainland practitioners coordinate together,
so the effect is even better. The same is true for the persecution
cases. We should disclose them in a timely manner to eliminate evil.
Once, a practitioner at the coach station was detected carrying Zhuan Falun
and truth clarification CDs. He was detained at a police station. He
was forcefully handcuffed to an iron chair for a long time, so that his
wrists were swollen and blue. Later, his parents found a friend who
could have him released, but they had to pay several thousand Yuan in
blackmail. The police station threatened to talk to him later. After he
was released we took photos of his wounds and sent them to Minghui
to show the persecution he went through along with the police station's
phone numbers, calling on overseas' practitioners for support. After
that the police station no longer looked after him.
At the end of 2004, one night I went with this practitioner to paste
some truth clarification stickers. We went to Tiananmen Square on Oct. 1st,
2004 to post truth clarification materials and everything was quite
smooth. So I became a little careless and did not look out for the
nearby environment and started pasting stickers. Soon after an urban
management vehicle parked near me, two men came out and dragged me
inside the car and then called 110. They said that, for catching one
Falun Gong practitioner, people would be rewarded a lot of money. I
sent righteous thoughts to clear the evil behind them at the same time
I clarified truth to them. I told them that we clarify the truth to
save sentient beings, including them. I also chatted with them to
eliminate their misunderstandings about Falun Gong. Later they were
moved and called 110 and said "no police was needed." They said there
were quite a few Falun Gong people and they could not stop us. We had
already run away. Then they drove me to a safe place and told me where
I could paste stickers, where they would not stop me. Afterwards, that
practitioner told me that at that time he was standing across the
street. Later, he ran to the cloverleaf junction and saw the vehicle I
was in driving away. No more than 5 minutes later, the 110 police car
came.
I remember Master's poem,
"Mercy can melt heaven and earth into spring
Righteous thought can save people of the world"
(Hong Yin II - "Fa Rectifies the Cosmos")
No matter in what way we meet with sentient beings, it is the opportunity to save them.
Master said in "Fa Teaching at the U.S. Capital", "That is why Dafa
disciples must try to save the world's people and save sentient beings.
You have initiated many efforts in ordinary society to save people, and
held many activities similar to those of ordinary society, or done
things that have resembled those of ordinary people, but the starting
point and goals are different."
Over the past a few years I had been tutor, volunteer, helped the
school with students affairs, organized business investigation,
organized play offs, also helped friends to start companies, and even
sold things in the school. Everything I did, I came upon more sentient
beings, and I clarified the truth to people with predestined
relationship. As long as our basis is to save sentient beings, no
matter where and when, I always remember Master's guidance, "He has
bountiful virtue and also maintains a benevolent heart; he is full of
great aspirations while minding minor details." (Essentials For Further
Advancement - "Sage")
I requested myself to demonstrate a Fa-rectification period Dafa
disciple's selfless manner, to allow all sentient beings I encounter to
be saved because we know that tens of thousands of years of tribulation
is just for today.
Master said in "Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital,"
"People with predestined relationships and those who can be saved can
be made to - made to by Master's Law Bodies, righteous gods, or the
immense field that Dafa has formed in the world - appear right before
you in any of a range of settings, providing them with a chance to
learn the truth."
I always carry with me a schoolbag with some truth clarification
materials inside. No matter where I go, if there is an opportunity, I
will distribute some material. Because I know, no matter where I go, no
matter what I am doing on the surface, the real reason behind is only
one, truth clarification is needed there, the sentient beings there
need to be saved. All people we encounter are targets we need to save.
In all environments, we may run into beings that need to be saved.
I have bought one writer's book of reflections on the Cultural
Revolution. A few years later, I gradually forgot about him. One day,
outside the campus, I ran into him on the street. I chatted with him
and gave the book: Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. He also
agreed to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its
related organizations.
There was a mother and a daughter wandering around on the campus who
attracted attention on the BBS in our school. One day, I was buying
something and they passed me. I talked to them and wanted to know if I
could help them. After they knew the truth about the Falun Gong they
agreed to withdraw from the CCP and its related organizations. Soon
afterwards they left the campus.
Once I participated in a large banquet and there was a high ranking
official there. I felt he also needed to be saved. So, later, during
the dinner I brought a cup of water to him and wrote a poem to him to
persuade him to denounce the darkness and embrace the brightness.
Initially, he was surprised but he did not give me any trouble, rather
he gave his business card to me.
People around me all feel I have many friends. I come into contact with
all kinds of people with various careers and I have a lot of friends.
Some even feel I am very capable at socializing with people. But only I
know that it is not the so-called socializing skill, rather it is the
mission of a Dafa disciple to save sentient beings. In fact,
previously, I was a very reticent person.
As Dafa disciples, we know that we came to the world today with the
mission to save sentient beings. Only saving sentient beings is real
and it is the world's most important thing. Some teachers talked with
me many times and once they knew the truth they have established a good
personal friendship with me. Some teachers told me: "Now you are a
student, so teachers and classmates are protecting you. What will
happen when you go out to work in future?" I told them that I thank
them for their good intentions, but I always believe in this saying: a
good person has a good fate and, no matter what the environment is, we
should do what we are supposed to do. In fact, I know in my heart,
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of
gong is done by one's Master." (Zhuan Falun) As long as we do things in accordance with the Master's Fa, all will make a way for Dafa disciples.
One student could not understand it and said to me: "I really do not
understand. You practice Falun Gong, yet those teachers are so good to
you. They offer all good things to you." I told him: "It is precisely
because I practice Falun Gong that they treat me well. Because they
know people who truly practice Falun Gong are all good people. Under
such pressure a person can still stick to his own belief, can still
uphold the justice, in their eyes, this person is capable. He is
China's hope. Dafa teaches us to be such a person who only considers
others selflessly." That student knew Dafa was under persecution, but
he did not believe in high beings and Buddhas and did not believe in
retribution. Sometimes he would say something disrespectful about Dafa.
Since then I haven't heard him say any bad words about Dafa.
Recalling the past five years, it seems rather ordinary and trivial.
But, when I think again, every tiny thing has Master's benevolence and
sentient beings' hopes melted in. When I close my eyes, the scenes of
many scenarios surface in front of me. During sitting meditation, when
my legs were painful, I would recite "When it's difficult to endure,
you can endure it. When it's impossible to do, you can do it." (Zhuan Falun) Then I could endure it.
In the late night we went out to distribute truth clarification materials, I remember,
"Great enlightened beings fear no hardship
Their will is cast of diamond
Life or death, they have no attachment
Forthright and broad-minded on the road of Fa-rectification"
(Hong Yin II version B - "Righteous Thoughts, Righteous Action")
Then enormous courage would grow in me. When I face evil,
"Upright the palm, heaven and earth quakes,
In the air stands a giant Buddha."
(Hong Yin version B - "The Great Enlightened")
When I felt things were hard, I remember,
"Cultivation paths are different
Yet all are within Dafa
With no attachment to anything
The path underfoot is naturally clear"
(Hong Yin II version B - "No Obstacles")
Then I saw hope in the hardships. When I regretted and felt hopeless, I
would lie on the bed and listen quietly to PuDu, let tears flow, and
memorized,
"Your body lies in prison - don't be sorrowful, don't be sad
With righteous thoughts and righteous actions, Fa is here
Calmly reflect on how many attachments you have
As you get rid of human mentality, evil is naturally defeated"
(Hong Yin II version B - "Don't Be Sad")
Then I would get up again. When I thought about those while writing this article, tears slipped down unconsciously.
Dear fellow practitioners, today the sentient beings we saved are still
limited, especially in mainland China. Let us be more diligent in this
last period of time. Let sentient beings feel the benevolence we have
even if we do not have a chance to talk to them when they pass by,
because Master is so benevolent to us.
Finally, I would like to share with you Master's poem,
"Thousands of laborious hardships for fifteen autumns
Who knows the suffering and worry of Fa-rectification
Only so that living beings can be saved
Not stopping until beyond the macro and the micro"
(Hong Yin II version B - "Difficulty")
Thanks, Master.
Thanks to the practitioners who walked with me during hardships and tribulations.
Thanks to all fellow practitioners.
Chinese version available at:
http://minghui.org/mh/articles/2008/3/5/173642.html
