PureInsight | October 17, 2011
[PureInsight.org] Recently, I read in the news that wicked Jiang Zemin died. I thought that since the principle culprit has died, the persecution of Falun Gong could be stopped now, and practitioners would be able to spread the Fa and do the exercises freely—that would be wonderful. Whilst thinking of this, I felt that my whole body was released from an unseen pressure and relaxed indescribably.
Although it passed, I still felt that something was wrong. Why did I have pressure? Why did the current circumstances make me breathe uneasily? In my mind, I never realized my feeling nervous and under pressure was not correct. I didn’t deny it; that was equal to saying I agreed with the old forces and acknowledged their persecution!
Master said in “Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference”: “We negate even the very emergence of the old forces and everything that they've arranged; we don't even acknowledge their existence. We're fundamentally negating all of their things, and all of, and only, the things you do while negating and getting rid of them is mighty-virtue. It's not that you're cultivating amidst the ordeals they created. Rather, you are to walk your own path well while not acknowledging them, not even acknowledging the elimination of their ordeals' manifestations. (Applause) So looking at it from this angle, what we need to do is completely negate the old forces. Dafa disciples and I don't even acknowledge the manifestations of their last-ditch efforts.” Master’s Fa is very clear that Master does not acknowledge the old forces. As Dafa disciples we shouldn’t acknowledge them either. We need to completely negate the old forces and walk on the cultivation path arranged by Master.
When I felt the pressure, I made room for the old forces in my dimension and I acknowledged it. Then the old forces would be able to control me. It was like what Master taught in Zhuan Falun: “’Well, don’t you want to practice cultivation? I’ll take care of you and tell you how to practice cultivation.’ It will make arrangements for them. Where will they go if they complete cultivation? Since cultivation practice is arranged by it, no schools of practice at high levels will accept you. Since it arranges everything for you, you will have to follow it in the future. Won’t your cultivation end up in vain?” So I should eliminate the feeling of pressure. I needed to be clear that it was not me; that it was imposed on me by the old forces. I didn’t want it. I would walk on the cultivation path arranged by Master only, magnanimously, openly and righteously.
Then I looked more deeply to search for my other hidden attachments. I had the attachment of comfort and the attachment of being self-abased. Every time when I needed to do something that required some attention and energy, I felt the pressure. For example, when I bought something wrong, I needed to exchange it; several days later I needed to go to somewhere to investigate a case (I am a lawyer); several days later I needed to go to court; when my manager assigned me a difficult and complicated task, etc. Very often I felt the pressure even days before I needed to do something. In my daily life I became nervous and depressed very easily whenever some trouble came up. I still remembered that before I worked, I told others I would like to be a typist, because that job was easy and there was no pressure. I always wanted to live a care-free and burden-free life. Under the surface I thought I was not capable. Therefore even when it was a trivial thing, I would think over and over about what I should say, how I should do it, etc. I was so nervous.
In his lectures, Master teaches us that the principles in the ordinary human world are contrary to the principles at higher levels. Ordinary people think that comfort is good but high level beings think that suffering is good. I have been cultivating for so long, but why haven’t I still changed my notions? I still pursue comfort and ease. Is this cultivation? The attachment of being self-abased was imposed on me by the old forces. As a Dafa disciple and a being assimilated to the Fa in the Fa rectification period, The Lord of Buddha’s has bestowed upon me wisdom, no matter how hard and complicated anything is, as long as I measure it with the Fa, I would be able to do it well naturally.
The above is my personal enlightenment. Please correct me if there is anything inappropriate.
Translated from: http://zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2011/9/8/77130.html