PureInsight | August 27, 2023
[PureInsight.org] I obtained the Fa when I was a student and started practicing Dafa barely with society’s influence. Before I practiced, I always thought that I do not have the attachment of jealousy, because I grew up in relatively good living conditions. When I was a child, my father often traveled all over the world on business, and always brought me new dresses, fun toys, and various extracurricular books that my friends did not have. Moreover, I have always been the first in my academic performance since I was a child. I was praised by teachers and neighbors. It can be said that I grew up amidst praise and envious eyes from others.
Since I was a child, I have been the envy of others, and I have never envied others. Although the family conditions were no longer so good when I grew up, my grades in middle school were no longer among the best. But the growth experience in childhood has already formed my character for my future, so when I grow up, I seldom envy others. When I was in school, I studied liberal arts. I liked literature and history, and I especially appreciated those historical figures who were indifferent to fame and fortune. Unknowingly, I formed a noble character of indifference to fame and fortune.
It was not until I practiced for many years that I realized that I also had jealousy, and it was very strong. It is often reflected in some small things. I decided to expose this ugly thing and get rid of it completely.
That was after I started working, there was a high school classmate of mine in my work unit, and her affairs became the topic of gossip after work. This classmate was given to relatives by her parents since she was a child, with the purpose of going to the city and becoming a “non-agricultural”. (At that time, “non-agricultural” status was still very popular.) Later, when she was looking for a job, she took a recruitment test, but she already knew the topic of the trial lecture in advance through other channels. After work, she pried on someone else's engaged boyfriend who was about to get married, and then she married that man. When she got married, the ex-girlfriend who lost the engaged boyfriend brought her relatives to the work unit to yell at her. At work, she won the favor of the leaders through the so-called “high EQ”, so the position has been promoted all the way up... Colleagues talk about her with relish, expressing contempt and ridicule; I also listen to it with relish, and cannot stop gossiping with others. Then it suddenly dawned on me that it was jealousy.
This kind of contempt and disapproval of certain behaviors of others is a manifestation of jealousy. Look down on those who love to take advantage, look down on those who flirt, and look down on shrewd and cunning people... These are actually all caused by jealousy.
Through studying the Fa, I realized that the “feeling unfair” psychology is also a manifestation of jealousy. Master said in Zhuan Falun, “Some years ago absolute egalitarianism was practiced, and it really messed up people’s thinking and values.” I found that I often had this kind of psychology: when my mother had an operation, the operation was scheduled a few days later. However, if someone came late, but the operation was arranged in front of the mother, I felt really unfair; when someone jumped in the queue, I felt unfair; if someone else got more bonuses than me, I felt unfair. I also like to say that: “Don't worry about scarcity, but worry about inequality.” It is the so-called it does not matter if everyone does not have anything, but it is matter if someone has more. If everyone is the same, I feel it is fair. If someone has more, I feel it is unfair. What kind of reasoning is this? They are all poisons of the CCP (Chinese communist party) culture.
In addition, when I went to clarify the Fa with fellow practitioners, I felt uncomfortable when I saw many more people withdrawing CCP when fellow practitioners clarified the truth. Also, I felt uncomfortable when I saw fellow practitioners publish articles. This type of uncomfortable feeling is the attachment of jealousy.
In addition, I did not write my name in the published articles, because I was afraid that fellow practitioners would be jealous if they saw it. Fear of being jealous of others is also one of the manifestations of jealousy. Fear of others being jealous is actually being jealous. It’s the same principle as Master said in Zhuan Falun, “When a person gets a larger bonus, he’ll quietly slip it into his pocket and not let anybody know.” It is the same principle.
Jealousy makes people ugly and vicious in heart, and jealousy harms others and oneself. Many examples in ancient and modern China and abroad have illustrated this point. Shen Gongbao made trouble for Jiang Ziya because of jealousy and filled in Beihai’s hole; Qin Hui colluded with foreign enemies to frame Yue Fei because of jealousy, and finally lost his reputation forever; Pang Juan hurt his classmate Sun Bin because of jealousy and dug his knee; Because of jealousy, Jigong was expelled from Lingyin Temple; because of jealousy, Snow White's stepmother repeatedly mutilated Snow White; Falun Dafa was framed, slandered, and suffered unprecedented persecution because of the jealousy of villain…
Jealousy is absolutely unacceptable. A person with an attachment to jealousy would prefer to complain, is prone to resentment, blames everything, and complains about unfair fate. It is completely contrary to the traditional culture of letting nature take its course, knowing one's fate, and contentment and happiness.
Master said in Zhuan Falun, “Jealousy is very serious, because it directly impacts whether we can cultivate to Perfection. If jealousy isn’t eliminated, all the thoughts you’ve cultivated become fragile. There’s a rule: a person who doesn’t get rid of jealousy while cultivating cannot achieve a True Fruition—he definitely won’t achieve a True Fruition. Maybe you’ve heard people say that Buddha Amitabha mentioned going to Heaven with karma. But that won’t happen if you don’t get rid of jealousy. You could fall a little short in some other way, go to Heaven with a little karma, and cultivate further. That’s possible. But that’s definitely not possible if you don’t get rid of your jealousy. Today I’m telling practitioners: stop turning a blind eye to your problem. Your goal is to cultivate up to higher levels, so you have to get rid of jealousy. That’s why I’ve singled it out.”
In this lecture, Master used “serious” once, “definitely” twice, and “have to” once. It can be seen that this problem is serious. Therefore, as a cultivator, jealousy must be eliminated absolutely. No matter how big or small it is, there is always a little bit of it, and even a little bit of it cannot achieve Consummation. Today I exposed this hidden attachment, made it nowhere to hide, and finally disintegrated it completely.
Chinese version: https://www.zhengjian.org/node/283741