PureInsight | October 15, 2014
[PureInsight.org] Recently, my teeth ached a lot. The time it hurt the most, I could not sleep for the entire night. I was rolling around on the bed and tears kept coming out of my eyes. I knelt on the bed and asked Master to help me. At the same time, I kept looking within and sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all the interference imposed upon me. But nothing worked. So I just rolled around and cried until it was time for morning exercises. I was determined to finish the exercises. Once I finished the exercises, the toothache stopped right away. The pain of that night made me feel worried the next few days. I did not realize that I had the fear of pain.
I had a toothache again recently but it was not as bad as last time. However, the pain still made my entire heart shake. I began to study the Fa, do the exercises, and send forth righteous thoughts more often. Subconsciously, I had a thought that it will definitely get better as long as I studied the Fa, did the exercises, looked within, and sent forth righteous thoughts more often. It was actually a hidden pursuit in a way that studying the Fa and doing the exercises were not truly for my improvement and the purpose of sending forth righteous thoughts was not helping Master to rectify the Fa, but to have the karma of the body eliminated quickly and gain comfort. I totally forgot the historical mission that a Dafa disciple carries. When I realized this, I felt guilty. There was still this “selfishness” no matter how I cultivated. This “selfishness” is a deviation from Dafa. It must be gotten rid of.
Other than that, I also found that I had a fear of pain. Master said in Zhuan Falun, “It’s hard to endure, but you can endure it. It’s hard to do, but you can do it.” Therefore, as a Dafa disciple, one must have a strong willpower. We should read the book and study the Fa more and follow Master’s requirements. We should be rid of this fear of pain during karma elimination and not let down Master’s compassionate salvation.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/134283