PureInsight | July 1, 2007
[PureInsight.org] Both my
husband and I are cultivating Dafa. Sometimes, when I wanted to
practice the exercises but he would say he was not ready yet, and then
I would just wait for him. Later, he would say that he did not have
time to do it after all. I was not very determined in doing the
exercises either and when something else came up, I would just give up
on it. This happened many times.
Sometimes I wanted to go out to clarify the truth or participate in the
group Fa-study, he would say that he did not plan to do so or that he
did not have time. Although I felt somewhat uneasy in the heart, I
still gave up.
Recently, during the process of memorizing the Fa, I have kept on
noticing my shortcomings and my attachments to human sentiments and the
external environment have surfaced. I realized that my heart was not
righteous. Master said: "What's not a right mind? It refers to a
person's inability to always treat himself as a practitioner." (Zhuan
Falun)
It is true that the starting point of my thinking should be that of a
particle of Dafa rather than a family member, doing things according to
a family member's attitude. Qing (Sentimentality) is something that
controls people and, when we are in Qing, it is easy to be moved by it
and make further incorrect decision. How can a god be manipulated and
controlled by anything in the human world? Holding onto the Qing and
not letting it go, is exactly the excuse the beings in the old cosmos
use to persecute Dafa disciples and weaken Dafa disciple's will in
cultivation.
Master said in "Path:" "Cultivation is
hard. It's hard in that even when a terrible calamity strikes, even
when evil madly persecutes, and even when your life is at stake, you
still have to be able to steadfastly continue on your path of
cultivation without letting anything in human society interfere with
the steps you take on your path of cultivation." At the critical
moment, I was still watching others. It was because my heart was not
determined and was easily shaken. So, merging into the Qing, I couldn't
walk out.
Now, my thought has changed. I will do all the fundamental things, such
as memorizing the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending forth righteous
thoughts, without waiting and relying on others. When clarifying the
truth, as long as it's good for Dafa and for saving sentient beings, I
will go ahead to do it without watching for others and replying on only
participating in the group activities. I am looking for opportunities
to clarify the truth, acting as a particle of Dafa and walking the path
of validating Dafa.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2007/6/20/44463.html
