A Little Experience on Looking Inward
[PureInsight.org] Several things have puzzled me over the last half-year. Some of them were not seemingly related to me; however, the practitioners who were in conflicts all directed their problems to me no matter how other practitioners helped me explain or how I explained the matter. I must have had some problems, otherwise, those severe conflicts would not have come to my attention. So, what problems did I have?
Once I talked to a fellow practitioner regarding my bewilderment. During the sharing, we talked about the interference from the evil. At that time, I kind of realized why it happened, and on the way home I felt that I got the point of how to look inward.
I found that when conflicts arose, what I first analyzed was to see whether I was right or wrong, or whether I had a certain mentality or attachment, or whether I had anything to gain or lose over the issue. This kind of looking inward was based on selfishness. When conflicts arise, if the first consideration is instead whether this matter may incur loses for Dafa, Dafa disciples as a whole body, or if it would hurt other practitioners, and we then send forth righteous thoughts to negate the interference and arrangements of the evil and look inward to see whether the evil has taken advantage of any of our unrighteous thoughts, we would be able to look inward from the right foundation.
After looking inward in this way, I found that for so many years I have been looking inward for the consideration of myself. The basis was for myself and was selfish, and sometimes even for the purpose of protecting myself. This type of looking inward was not for Dafa disciples as a whole body. I feel that doing this is actually very dangerous. When I was persecuted in the past, one thing always puzzled me—that is, I felt that I had been looking inward all the time, so why was I still persecuted? In fact, when we stand on the right foundation to look inward, the evil cannot move us at all.
Last year in a severe conflict, I looked inward from the perspective of protecting Dafa and protecting Dafa disciples as a whole body, treated all the rumors and criticism with the compassion and broadmindedness of a cultivator, and I was eventually able to dissolve the plots of the evil in other dimensions trying and attack me. At that time, what guided me was the video of Master's lecture to Australian practitioners.
When I looked inward today, it became very clear that no matter how big or how small the issue is, we need to look inward from the right foundation; thus, we can treat fellow practitioners with compassion. When the foundation is not right, it is hard to have compassion; instead, we will often complain a lot.
At this point, I had found the basis for looking inward. Next, I needed to find my problem. As I dug deeper, I found that fundamentally all the conflicts were related to each single thought of mine. To put it more accurately, all the conflicts around me are incurred by my unrighteous mentality. My bad notions against fellow practitioners are the critical place that the evil has exploited. I have now understood how important it is for Dafa disciples to have a pure heart without any notions and always have compassion.
I realized that as long as we think it is the mistake of other people, we actually failed to look at the problems in ourselves. When we truly found our own problems, we absolutely would not have complaints against other people. On the contrary, what we would have is just the determination to eliminate the human mentality in ourselves that we were not able to eliminate before.
Above is my personal understanding. Because of the limitation of my level, please point out with compassion anywhere I may fall short.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2009/7/10/60447.html