PureInsight | April 12, 2010
[PureInsight.org] Recently I had some symptoms of a “cold,” namely: nasal congestion, having to breathe with my mouth, a runny nose, dizziness, feeling cold on my back, and my nose was red and irritated due to constant rubbing. I obviously sensed many negative things in my dimension. This situation has lasted for three days. In the beginning, I did not pay much attention to it. But as time went on it became worse and worse and has interfered with the things that I need to do. As a practitioner, these symptoms made me think of some loopholes I have had on the journey of assisting Master to rectify the Fa. The manifestation of these loopholes in this dimension is physical discomfort.
Where did I do poorly? I first examined my sending forth righteous thoughts. I did it fairly well a while ago. I was able to concentrate on sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate evil and I also felt a strong energy field. But this situation did not last long. Because of an attachment to seeking comfort, I wanted to sleep more and this was taken advantage of by the old forces. I have not been able to completely let go of my attachment to seeking comfort. Because of my reluctance, the attachment was able to exist in my physical body. Any attachment—as long as it has not been let go of—has an existence in my body. When my actions were not on the Fa, I was actually defending the field of attachment. In order to seek comfort, I often made an excuse for myself: “I am able to send forth righteous thoughts when lying in bed.” Master said, “As long as you keep your righteous thoughts strong and focus your mind you can achieve the same results. But under normal circumstances you should hold your palm erect or do the lotus hand position” (“Righteous Thoughts”). In fact, I often went to sleep after a while. Plus, the reason I sent forth righteous thoughts in bed was because of seeking comfort and this was not a special situation. Why should I seek comfort while wanting to cultivate at the same time? Cultivation means enduring hardship. Master said, “Whether you can practice cultivation all depends upon whether you can endure, sacrifice, and suffer” (Zhuan Falun).
Secondly, I looked at my Fa-study. About two years ago, I learned from the Internet that many practitioners were reciting Zhuan Falun. I thought that it was a good idea and began to do it as well. It went very well. One thing I found was that one has to calm down when reciting the Fa, otherwise, one can only memorize one paragraph after a long time. I have been slow on reciting the Fa these past few days and it is related to my attachment to comfort. Every day I have certain things to do. When seeking comfort, this attachment delays other things that I need to do; either I could only do a little Fa-study, or I have done poorly in doing the exercises. Anyway, I have not done well on the three things.
Thirdly, I looked at my truth-clarification. I used to send text messages using two cell phones. Today, I was annoyed by my nasal congestion and was unwilling to go out. It is time for me to sit down and look within to eliminate this attachment.
When writing this article, there was still congestion in my nose. I think that as a practitioner one should not be disturbed by external situations. This not only includes the surrounding environment, but also our sickness karma. One should do what a Dafa disciple is supposed to do: study the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and clarify the truth, regardless of the circumstances. One should do them as if there is no physical discomfort. There might be discomfort in the process, but as long as long one continues to do what Master has asked of us, things will improve.
The reason that the old forces are able to interfere using sickness karma is because we did not do well. In this way, it did wake me up, but the old forces’ purpose is to destroy practitioners: they will acknowledge you if you pass the test and eliminate you if you fail. My cultivation journey should be arranged by Master, but the old forces interfered with Master’s plans. When one has too many human notions, the old forces will take advantage of that. Master taught us how to look within and we should follow that instruction to rectify ourselves. By doing this, the old forces are unable to interfere.
By being clear on the Fa, I have regained confidence in my cultivation.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2010/2/16/64358.html