PureInsight | May 30, 2012
[PureInsight.org] I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1996. I have not thought about it too much and have had a happy life since then. Here I would like to share my experience of overcoming sickness karma.
I didn’t have any major illnesses in the past. However, on the afternoon of August 11 of last year, I had a stomachache. It was painful, but I was able to make it through the night. On the next day it got worse; nonetheless I could still go to work. By dinner time, it became more severe and I was unable to eat. Because of the pain, I could only drink some water. I asked for help from two practitioners and they sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil. One practitioner told me not to accept the persecution since Master did not acknowledge it. She also shared her recent experience of overcoming a toothache. The other practitioner told me to spend more time reciting the Fa and looking inward.
The pain was very severe, so I looked within and found many attachments: fame, material interests, and lust. I also did poorly in sending forth righteous thoughts and clarifying the truth. After I went back home, however, the pain was still there. I thus sent forth righteous thoughts, recited Hong Yin, and asked Master for help. But things did not change much.
It was summer and I didn’t eat for three days. My weight dropped by more than 10 kilograms and I couldn’t bear it anymore. While lying in the bed, I sent forth righteous thoughts, asking Master for help. I also recited the words in Zhuan Falun, “When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” I spoke to the evil that persecuted me, “I am a Dafa disciple of Master Li and he is taking care of me. Even if I have attachments, I will be rectified by the Fa. None of you is qualified to interfere with me. If there is some pain that I need to suffer, I will bear it; otherwise, all of it will go back to you.” I also spoke with Master in my heart, “Master, I will follow your arrangements no matter what happens.” I was very determined and had no impure thoughts in my mind. Sometimes, some thoughts came to my mind, “You are dying now and you need to go to hospital.” I did not acknowledge it and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it. It was so painful that I turned over in the bed again and again. Later I went to sleep, but it was still very painful whenever I woke up.
Then I remembered Master’s words in “Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York,” “You can have this thought: ‘During the Fa-rectification of the cosmos, I can make a reasonable arrangement for those of you who don't interfere with my validating the Fa; I can have you become beings in the future. Those of you who seek a benevolent resolution should leave me and wait in my surroundings. If you really cannot leave me, then don't have any part in interfering with me. In the future I will be able to achieve Consummation, and I will offer you a benevolent resolution. Those who are completely bad, who still interfere with me and who cannot remain will, according to the standards, have to be eliminated. Even if I don't eliminate you, the Law of the cosmos won't let you remain.’ If you have that thought, it is tremendously merciful to some of those extremely low-level beings, and it will make it easy to eliminate those who still interfere.” Since it was very painful and I had previously read such articles on Clearwisdom, I tried to benevolently resolve them. But the pain did not go away; nonetheless, I knew Master was by my side and there must have been some reasons why my pain continued. One of my family members repeatedly asked me to see a doctor. I was not disturbed and told him I would be all right soon.
By Saturday afternoon, it was still hurting badly, so I went to visit another practitioner to see what she thought of it. It was only about 1000 meters, but it took me a long time to get there by bike. On the road, I remembered Master's words in Lecture Six of Zhuan Falun, “As a practitioner, if you always think that it is an illness, you are actually asking for it.” That practitioner did not think it was sickness either and she agreed I should continue sending forth righteous thoughts. As I looked back, I was thankful that she did not suggest that I go to the hospital; otherwise, I might have stumbled over this.
Early in the morning on the fifth day, I felt that the agony had moved from my stomach to my abdomen. I felt relieved because I knew that the Falun in my abdomen would help improve the situation. An hour later, I had a diarrhea and then everything went back to normal soon afterwards.
I had two understandings about this tribulation. One is that, when seeing other practitioners experiencing tribulations, we need to encourage them and support them with righteous thoughts, instead of suggesting that they to go to the hospital. Secondly, when stuck in a tribulation ourselves, we can never lose faith in Master or the Fa. Everything happens for a reason and Master is looking after us all the time. As long as we continue to remain determined and look within, Master will help us overcome the tribulation. This is just like what Master said in Hong Yin-Volume II,
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide.”
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2012/3/2/80916.html