PureInsight | October 15, 2014
Dear Master and Fellow Practitioners
I really appreciate this opportunity given by Master to share with you my cultivation experiences and saving sentient beings in the United States.
Before I took up cultivation, I was very sick with various kinds of illnesses and on the brink of death. I was taking an enormous amount of Western and Chinese medicine. Though I was taking medicine as my regular meals, it still had no effect on my health. It seemed as though new illness symptoms were adding to the old ones, my health became worse and worse, I was so desperate with my life. One day felt like one year to me.
Luckily, Master did not forget me at all and brought me into this eternal Dafa. In 1993, I attended Master’s Nine Day Lectures at Wu Chang Financial Universities in Wu Han. That was the happiest period of time in my whole life. Since then, my life has turned a completely new page. All of the illnesses that had plagued my life disappeared during the process of practicing the Falun Dafa exercises. I had regained my health. Since I began practicing Falun Dafa 21 years ago, I have never taken any medicine. Before I encountered Dafa, I often slept for 20 hours but still had no energy; after I practiced Dafa, I only needed 4 hours sleep and I was filled with energy. Dafa adjusted my body and put my life on a very bright path. I am at the age of 70 now, but I feel I have endless strength and have become younger and younger at the same time. This is definitely a miracle created by Dafa, which cannot be explained by science.
Similar miracles have happened to me a couple of times after I came to the U.S as well. A couple of years ago, I was hit by a truck on my way back from promoting the “Chinese New Year Splendor” in Chicago. I was unconscious for 7 days. When the police sent me to the hospital, the doctors told them that I had constant inner brain bleeding. Even with a successful operation, I would live the rest of my life in a vegetative state. However, with Master’s help, I miraculously survived.
When I woke up, my first words were “I want to go home.” The doctor had to make sure whether or not I was really back to a conscious state, he asked me “what is ten times ten?” I gave the right answer immediately. But when the doctor asked me “what is one plus one?” I did not answer. At the time, I could recite the whole book “Zhuan Falun”, which was amazing to the hospital staff. I understood very well, this is a demonstration of the extraordinary power of Dafa.
Over the past 21 years of my cultivation in Falun Dafa, I have always focused on Fa Study. I have already recited this divine book “Zhuan Falun” over two thousand times. Every day I keep reciting five lectures of “Zhuan Falun”. Though I have recited it many times, I still have weak points on Fa Study, sometimes I would miss words or add words, repeat or reverse the sentences, which is not the same as “Zhuan Falun”.
At the beginning, I would forget it all immediately after I finished reciting “Zhuan Falun”, or I could not see any new meaning behind the words. Sometimes I feel very guilty for Master having expending enormous efforts to save me. Master scooped me up from hell and has cleansed me many times, but I still cannot catch up with the rapid process of the Fa rectification of the entire cosmos. A lot of times, I do not even dare to look at Master’s photo, as I feel that I am not able to live up to Master’s expectations, which causes Master to worry. Because of this, I would blame myself a lot. I understand that whatever our minds contain, our behavior will be the same as what is in our mind. I try to remind myself to understand the Fa naturally. So I study the Fa more and try to catch up with the speed of Fa rectification.
It is not always peaceful on my cultivation path, so I keep reminding myself that if I fall over, I should stand up immediately instead of lying on the ground all the time. Over the years, during Shen Yun promotions, no matter whether it is the Shen Yun flyer delivery, or special editions’ delivery or putting up posters, I have encountered accidents many times. With righteous faith, believing in Master and Dafa, I made it through those tribulations. Sometimes I did not even mention it to anyone. I know that Master has been protecting me and watching over me the whole time. It is also clear to me that I should look at myself more. How can the evil cause these interferences? Is it due to my hidden human attachments that the evil takes advantage of?
One time after I had a car accident, my chest was very painful and I found it difficult to breathe. However, there were so many things that I needed to get done, one of which was wrapping dozens of special editions with plastic covers. At the time, I was determined to keep doing the things that I should do. From morning until night, I kept wrapping the special editions whilst sitting on the floor, I did not stop for a rest, or to eat and drink. At the end of the day, I needed other practitioner’s help to stand up. I did not take the pain seriously, and neither did I tell my children. If I told my children, I could very well have been sent to their home, and not allowed to help with Shen Yun promotions. I am already quite old aged and cannot speak English. I can only join a few Fa rectification projects, so I would never lose the chance to devote my efforts on the things I can do. Honestly speaking, what can I do? Isn’t it everything done by Master? It’s all done by Master.
Master said, “Master affirms what Dafa disciples have done. As long as you are doing things out of a wish to validate the Fa and save sentient beings, I will affirm all that you do. And when you go do those things, there will be my Law Bodies or gods there to amplify it and make what you do yet more magnificent and extraordinary, and they will assist you.” (Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference) Whenever I read this Fa, I can always feel Master’s immeasurable compassion and gracious blessings, and then my tears cannot be stopped.
How time flies. I have already been through twenty one years of cultivation. Though I have done some things over these past years, I feel that I have not done enough. I can only be counted as an old disciple, but I cannot be counted as a diligent disciple. The current time has been prolonged with Master’s huge efforts and should be used to save more sentient beings. Whenever I think of this, I feel that time is very tight. As such, I try to put myself on a strict time schedule: 4 hours’ CCP denouncement phone calls to China; 10 hours’ Fa Study, 3 hours’ exercises, another three hours for sending righteous thoughts, cooking and eating, and 4 hours for sleep. However, because of my attachment to comfort, I still cannot stick with this schedule all the time. Oftentimes, I cannot complete my schedule.
We practitioners should raise the requirements on ourselves. Master said, “If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of mind, when you run into problems you’ll handle them well because it will give you space as a buffer. If you are always compassionate and friendly to others, if you always consider other people when you do things, and whenever you have issues with other people you first think about whether they can take it or whether it will cause them harm, then you won’t have any problem. So, when you cultivate you should follow high and even higher standards.” (Improving Character, Lecture 4, Zhuan Falun) Every time when I recite this Fa, I would think that I do not yet meet the requirement of “high and even higher standards”, because I have not reached the requirement of “you always consider other people when you do things”.
When I look within, I find that I still have selfishness in regards to my family and cooperation. For example sometimes I am not satisfied with my son. One day he took my grandson to deliver flyers and my grandson got bitten by a dog. Another day, he took my grandson to collect signatures to requesting local congressman to co-op the 281 resolution. I felt that it was a little bit unfair “Why didn’t you ask your grandson to take along his grandma? Can’t we save more sentient beings in this way?”
After this, I realised that I am living in an Elderly Residential complex, so there is no need for me to work or do too much housework. Though I have a plenty of free time, I still feel that time is too short and not enough for me to fulfill my cultivation and saving of sentient beings. Then how are young people to deal with this? They need to work every day and do it well. After they come home from work, they need to take care of children, cooking, cleaning and a lot of housework. They still need to put Fa rectification in the most important place and do it well too. Then how should they arrange their time?
At home, three generations of my family all practice Falun Dafa. It is really a good environment to practice Dafa and learn from each other. However, after I moved out, my son and daughter-in-law needed to deal with more housework. One day, my grand-daughter, aged 5, got a fever. Her ten year old brother was taking care of her at home. He only knew that he should keep feeding his sister with water. By the end of day, my grand daughters’ shirt was soaked with water. I should have been allowed to take care of my grand-daughter, but my son and daughter-in-law did not even tell me because they did not want to make me worry, and to give me more time. They put cultivation and truth-clarification in the most important place. From an ordinary person’s point of view, they were caring for me; from a cultivators’ point of view, they were being selfless. They were using their time to do truth clarification, but here I am still complaining about them.
From another aspect, I think most elderly practitioners feel anxious to join in some truth clarification events. There are comparatively less Dafa disciples living in the Mid-US, but there are thousands of Chinese who have not realized the truth, neither have they been saved. Master said in Fa Teaching at the 2013 Western U.S. Fa Conference, “I wouldn’t be able to put my mind at ease if I hadn’t said these words to you. Everything is about to reach the end, and you’ve seen it. What is on Earth is a corresponding reflection of the cosmos. Increasingly, the upright and the just are prevailing, whereas the evil things are going down. It’s even to the point that those who have directly taken part in the persecution of Dafa disciples are living in a state of constant fear and anxiety. Before, they made Dafa disciples live in constant fear. Now it’s their turn to suffer for it. So, having come to this point, just think about it: how much is left on the journey? There really isn’t long left on the road of Dafa disciples saving sentient beings and fulfilling their missions.” After reading this, I always feel time is really very tight now and Dafa Disciples’ responsibilities are huge. Luckily everything is controlled by Master. No matter when it is going to end, we only need to get rid of our attachments and cherish every minute and second to fulfill the last part of our cultivation path.
Finally I got a chance to collect petition signatures with other practitioners. After one day, I got 180 signatures. Another elderly practitioner got 315 signatures. I feel regretful about the gap between me and my fellow practitioners.
“When the Fa Rectifies the Human World
Rotten demons will have been exterminated,
Dark minions, melted into pus and blood.
For the things human beings have done,
Deadly epidemics will inevitably be meted out.
January 1, 2004”（Hong Ying Volume II）
The sentient beings that have not yet been saved will be in great danger. We are competing against the old forces to save them! Therefore, I sincerely hope younger Dafa practitioners could take the lead as much as possible. We should save the sentient beings together until the end. When one more person is saved, the massive group of beings’ whom he represents will be saved. Elderly practitioners have a pure heart. When young practitioners walk in the front, we elderly practitioners can do some helpful work at the back. When young practitioners do not mind the inconvenience brought by elderly practitioners and work together with us, we sincerely appreciate it.
During the past few days, when I was reciting the Fa, I could not stop my tears. I realized that I should write down my past years’ cultivation experiences and share them with you. This is just my understanding of Dafa. If there is anything incorrect, please inform me with compassion.
In closing, I would like to encourage all practitioners with this poem by Master.
“Predestination Formed, the Lotuses Bloom
Where now are the gallant heroes of yore?
One after another they have come
since the spread of Dafa commenced
So long and drawn out the years—
hundreds, thousands, their measure
The predestination formed, with
true fruition, the many lotuses bloom
June 19, 2001”（Hong Ying Volume II）
Thank you Master! Thank you practitioners!
July 22nd, 2014