PureInsight | December 25, 2016
Dear Master, dear fellow practitioners,
I would like to share my experience of harmonizing as one body.
At my local big group Fa study, I’ve usually been leaving straight after studying, without staying for the sharings, because I don’t understand Chinese and it felt like too much trouble to have someone translating for me.
But two weeks ago, I stayed longer. A fellow practitioner said to the group, “Let’s talk about the Asian Fa Conference.” Since nobody responded, I took the microphone. I shared about being so touched by the truth clarification movie “Davids & Goliath” and its story about a local Chinese relative going to China to get an organ transplanted. I wanted to encourage Chinese practitioners to clarify the truth to their local Chinese people, because very few fellow practitioners were coming out locally.
Someone translated my sharing into Chinese. It was very quiet afterwards. Later, I found that some practitioners had changed their attitude toward me. Why? Before, they only knew that I distributed materials and collected signatures locally; nobody knew exactly what I was doing or how my Xinxing was improving.
I had intentionally shared about material distribution and signature collection that day, to encourage other practitioners to join in. I was thinking of others. Why hadn’t I shared with local practitioners before, during the big group Fa studies? It wasn’t only the language barrier, but the attachment of fear. I also hadn’t taken it seriously enough. Actually, I hadn’t merged myself into the local group, since I didn’t share my daily cultivation experiences with them. I had talked to a local coordinator about the projects needing manpower at the beginning, when I was feeling really motivated. But afterwards, I slacked off, just like an ordinary person whose interest may come and go. I didn’t realize that I should encourage all local practitioners to do the truth clarification, and not only talk about it at big activities, but to encourage them in daily life. Practitioners who speak Chinese can directly tell Chinese people not to go to China for organ transplants.
I was very upset over my shortcomings. Why hadn’t I realized the importance of sharing with fellow practitioners? Apparently, practitioners had believed that I had less CCP (Chinese Communist Party) culture and was doing well, because of my smiley appearance. Actually, I hadn’t been assimilating with the group or thinking about improving together. In my mind, I had only wanted to protect and rectify myself.
Recently, I realized that I hadn’t been sharing with fellow practitioners based on the Fa. I wanted to do better. But since I hadn’t understood my problem based on the Fa, other practitioners didn’t understand me. After sharing with fellow practitioners several times, I was told to look inward.
Master said in Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan, “That’s because on your path of cultivation there is nothing that is by chance.”
I didn’t know what the root of the problem was and I thought that the other practitioners were not in line with the Fa. But recently, with Master’s help, I found a lot of my shortcomings: I didn’t understand the Fa based on the Fa; I didn’t study the Fa based on the Fa; and I saw practitioners who were positive as being the diligent practitioners. I complained about feeling pressured by other practitioners, but didn’t realize that it was because I had loopholes in my Xinxing. The old forces took advantage of my loopholes to strengthen everyone’s attachments. My fellow practitioners and I were actually all being persecuted by the old forces. I felt aggrieved and didn’t know how to talk with fellow practitioners, because my negative thoughts towards them were strengthening the bad things in their field.
An article from the Minghui website said, “Any contradiction is an improvement opportunity arranged by Master. Don’t look outside. Once you eliminate your attachment, the fellow practitioners will change. The situation was to cultivate yourself. However, you always look at fellow practitioners without your own improvement. No matter what situation you are in, you should look at other practitioners’ good sides.”
I was upset when I read the last sentence. I had so many bad thoughts about other practitioners. How could I cooperate with them then? They are also disciples of Master and lots of beings are awaiting their return. Those problems I saw reflected on fellow practitioners were my own.
I will increase my Fa study, and treat fellow practitioners with righteous thoughts and compassion. I hope I can integrate myself into the whole and improve together with everyone based on the Fa.
“Study the Fa and gain the Fa,
Focus on how you study and cultivate, Let each and every thing be measured against the Fa.
Only then, with that, is it actually cultivation.”
Translated from http://www.zhengjian.org/node/154976