PureInsight | August 21, 2018
[PureInsight.org] Through serious Fa study, I am more and more aware of my own deficiencies in cultivation. It also makes me feel how important Dafa disciples' responsibility and mission are. With gratitude to Master, I couldn't help sobbing when I read “What is a Dafa disciple”. What a glory to be picked as a Dafa disciple!
At the beginning of looking inward, I don’t know what to look for because of my low level. I measure myself often using ordinary people's standards. To improve, I must check my words and mind against Dafa standards. Master said in “Drive Out Interference” in Essentials for Further Advancement II, "The Fa can break all attachments".
I realize the painful lesson of being illegally kidnapped by the CCP (Chinese communist party) nine years ago was related to my lust attachment.
It was the Internet; but I have been also driven by the ordinary society. Due to some articles and posts through Internet for my company, I started connecting with this virtual environment. My posts triggered all my attachments such as the style of my posts, others’ praise and my fame attachment, even the lust attachment. Sometimes, the lust attachment disguised as a serious one. But in front of true cultivators, it was just the embodiment of the demon of lust. Because my heart was not in the Fa, and with all kinds of attachments such as showing off, happy, fame, etc, I was disorientated by internet postings from the opposite sex. That kind of complacency was really overwhelming! When I was pushed into the trap step by step, I still believed it was an opportunity to do truth clarification. The truth clarification became an excuse and I spent more time online looking for the so-called "spiritual sustenance". Then, it caused me to be illegally abducted by the evil CCP.
The reason why my heart was so easy to be driven by internet was mostly because I didn’t have solid Fa study. It has been long time since then. Although lots of attachments were eliminated, I was still disturbed easily. To be a true cultivator in Dafa, I have to pay attention to my thoughts, words and deeds all the time.
Compared with previous years, the world is getting worse. Internet, cell phone and the social media are influencing cultivators more and more.
As a true cultivator, I should follow Master’s words in “Abiding in the Dao” in Hong Yin, “Looking, but caring not to see-- Free of delusion and doubt.
Listening, but caring not to hear--A mind so hard to disturb.”
I also need to consider, act against Dafa standards with more serious Fa study and always look inward. Then I can use the righteous thoughts from Fa to disintegrate all demons.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/244677