PureInsight | September 18, 2013
[PureInsight.org] I am a veteran practitioner. I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1997 but did not practice diligently. During the period after the persecution started on July 20, 1999, I gave up practicing true cultivation because of my fear. But merciful Master did not want to let me go. In 2012, a practitioner from another town came to our place to share experiences. His sharing using the principles of Dafa awakened me. I came back to truly practice Dafa, and my real life was reborn again.
I studied the Fa with great effort. I realized that the path that I had travelled on in the past was arranged by the old forces.
I did not clearly understand many principles of the Fa, nor did I understand how to practice cultivation in Dafa. I did not know how to distinguish the relationship between personal cultivation and Fa Rectification cultivation. Hence I did not completely understand what Master’s requirements were, and how to truly walk on the path that Master has arranged for me.
Through Fa study I have come to understand that my past understandings and so-called enlightenment were all arranged by the old forces. What did I enlighten from? Did I enlighten from the principles of the Fa? I did not understand the Fa based on the Fa principles; instead I used personal notions to understand the Fa. Consequently a lot of interference arose in my cultivation. I was unable to break through this interference for more than a decade. I realized that I have not done what Master has told us to do. For example, Master has asked us to relinquish fame, personal gain, and sentiment, but I have not been able to let go of these attachments.
Master said in “Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference:” “But, once that mentality arises there’s going to be trouble. The old forces will do what they want to do, and once you unknowingly acknowledge their arrangements they’ll have excuses to control you and create various types of danger for you.”
I thought that my understanding of the Fa in the past and those theories in my mind came from my original true self. This was a sort of acknowledgment which led me astray. It was a consequence of not understanding and following the Fa principles.
What Master has arranged for us is this Dafa. We must follow this Dafa completely and do everything based on the Fa. For example, once when I attended an experience sharing conference, during the break some practitioners brought in some fruit, such as apples, bananas, oranges, and so on. Other practitioners were eating the fruit, and I wanted to eat some as well. As I was reaching out my hand to pick up an apple from a plate, a male practitioner approached me and said loudly to me in front of everyone, “This is not for you. You have to wait and you cannot eat now.” All the practitioners stared at me. All of a sudden I found myself in this embarrassing situation and my heart began to thump. I was thinking, “Why don’t you care about the other people who are eating? Why I am not allowed to eat? Shall I argue with him? Why did he shout at me so loudly? What do the other practitioners think of me upon seeing him shout at me?” At the same time, I could suddenly see my human thinking. I realized that this was not the true me, because my true self would not think this way. I immediately thought about what Master has taught us: “Isn’t it true that nothing you come across is by chance?” (“To the European Fa Conference”).
Master also said: “I say that this is not good enough. Perhaps in the future you may be slapped in the face twice, and you will lose face in front of someone whom you least want to see it. It is to see how you will deal with this issue and whether you can endure it.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)
I thought to myself that there must be something that I have not done according to the Fa. This is a good opportunity for me to assimilate to the Fa. Afterwards, I did not say anything and felt very calm. I silently located a seat and quietly recited the Fa.
After I got back home, I practised the fifth exercise and very soon entered Ding. I had never experienced such peaceful tranquillity before. When I read Zhuan Falun again, I felt different from the past. Master said: “One’s gong level is as high as one’s xinxing level” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun).
It took me a long time to memorize the Fa in the past. But on that day, it took me just a little more than ten minutes to memorize a paragraph. I experienced a miraculous moment of cultivating in Dafa. I really felt it. Since then, I’ve started practicing more and more diligently.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/print/118100