PureInsight | May 29, 2021
Greetings fellow practitioners!
I have obtained the Fa for more than 20 years, practicing alone in the countryside. I can recognize problems on my own. No matter how difficult tribulations may be, I have broken through with my firm belief in Dafa. Here I report to Master my three experiences going through sickness tribulation to prove the power of Dafa and Master's great compassion.
Burning Like Hot Coal, Waking Up Normal
I was healthy before practicing and rarely even caught a cold. In the summer of 1998, I was working for my boss who took many medications. After he practiced Dafa, he recovered from sickness and became energetic, which really impressed me. Under his introduction, I began Dafa cultivation.
I clearly remember that my boss began ‘eliminating karma’ after three days of class. At noon that day, it was very hot. He was lying in bed with a quilt and closed his eyes, moaning. I asked him to go to the hospital. He shook his head. His mother-in-law had obtained the Fa and sat at the bedside, "This is a good thing. Master is taking care of you!" I was confused.
Over the next few days, my boss had severe bloody stools, but his body was getting better. After reading Zhuan Falun, I suddenly became clear: this is ‘eliminating karma’ as mentioned in the book. At that moment, the atheism within me collapsed. I had read so many books in the past, and the villagers called me ‘teacher’, but I could not explain this phenomenon. However, Dafa explains it clearly. Dafa is really supernormal! It is a book from heaven.
After I began cultivating, I had no serious ‘karma elimination’, so I thought: I might have come to ‘assimilate to Dafa’. In fact, this is a cultivator’s luck. At that time, I did not know how to look inward, but I deeply believed in Master. I will cultivate Dafa this lifetime.
Why did I recall this experience? Because in my mind, my fellow practitioner boss gave me a deep impression and became my ‘model’, which had a great influence on me for several years. This was learning from other practitioners rather than studying the Fa. I thought that because I was young, sickness karma had nothing to do with me. I regarded sickness karma content on the Minghui website as ‘other people’s problems’ and did not pay attention to the fellow practitioner’s rational enlightenment. I did not want to read about problems I did not encounter. I later realized this was a cultivator's loophole.
One day, I suddenly spiked a fever in the middle of the night. My body was hot like coal from the inside-out, and my bones hurt. When my wife saw me like this, she panicked and asked me to take medicine. I closed my eyes and shook my head, telling her this was ‘eliminating karma’ and it would be alright. She did not believe me and urged me to go to the hospital. I said, "Don't worry. I will be fine tomorrow morning." By the next morning, I fully recovered as if nothing happened. I got up to make breakfast and went to work normally.
At that time, because I was cultivating by myself, I did not know how to look inward when something happened and did not analyze why it happened. My firm belief in Master allowed me to pass that test.
Severe Headache Disappears with One Thought
Cultivation does not wait for people. If one does not pass a xinxing tribulation, the karma may manifest on our body because eventually it needs to be eliminated. Whenever I did handled a xinxing test poorly, my body would immediately undergo sickness karma. Because I did not know how to look inward, I suffered a lot physically.
The second sickness karma tribulation was a big test that really pushed the limits. In the middle of the night, I suddenly woke up with a headache that gradually worsened. I got up to send forth righteous thoughts. After only a while, I felt like my head was splitting open, and my body was drenched in sweat. At that time, I could not send forth righteous thoughts anymore since my hands and body weren’t functioning properly. I knelt on my bed and repeated, "Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good." I felt my voice trembling as if death was approaching me.
At that time, I told myself I would not go to the hospital even if I died. However, I thought again: I cannot die. How would I cultivate if I died? How would I save people? I yelled desperately in my heart, "Master–help me!" For about half an hour, I felt like a chestnut thrown into the fire. I heard ‘squeak-squeak’ sounds followed by a huge cracking sound – Bang! I wondered if my clairaudience had just been unlocked. After the explosion, my ears were ringing for a long time. My head no longer hurt, and I fell asleep in a daze. When I woke up, everything was normal.
For the previous two sickness karma tribulations, I passed by believing in Master and the Fa. I realized that sickness karma is a battle between good and evil in another dimension. With Master and the Fa, I felt grounded without fear. Nothing bad would happen.
Stubborn Sickness Finally Resolves, Exemplifying the Power of Dafa
Cultivation has stages and levels. Had I broken through the initial sickness karma tribulations with righteous thoughts and gained a more mature understanding of the Fa, I would have been looking inward. When I encounter a tribulation, do I check if I have any loopholes? Or am I stuck on one level for a long time? Because everything happens for a reason. Master said in The Essentials of Diligent Progress III – “To the Chicago Fa Conference”, “Whatever you experience during your cultivation—whether good or bad—is good, for it comes about only because you are cultivating. A cultivator cannot achieve Consummation when laden with human thoughts, laden with karmic debts, or laden with attachments”.
Two years ago, I developed a sickness karma condition of ‘hemorrhoids’ that waxed and waned. When it was severe, I had bloody stools. When my family found out, they were worried and forced me to go to the hospital. At the time, I met a non-local fellow practitioner who reminded me to look inward and send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference. However, I had a hard time looking inward. I seemed to have some attachments to lust, competitiveness, jealousy, material desire, resentment, fame, fortune, struggle, and fear, but none were prominent. Because I could not find the root cause, my problem went unsolved. Master used the fellow practitioner to hint at me, "Your problem is dragging too long!"
What was the problem? Despite looking inward repeatedly, I could not find any major problems. How well had I cultivated minor problems? Human attachments are not classified by size. Although the human attachments mentioned above were not trees, they were many patches of grass. What did having so many human attachments indicate? It indicated that I had not cultivated genuinely enough. How could cultivation be only about the major problems? It is all about the small steps. Every thought separates humans from the divine. If one cultivates well the minor problems, one will not encounter major problems. If one does not cultivate well the minor problems, then major problems will come knocking. Master said in Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference, "Some of our practitioners are struggling with passing the tests of sickness karma. Don’t think that it’s necessarily something major [that causes that]. You might think that you haven’t done anything majorly wrong, and that you are very firm in your faith in the Fa. However, you shouldn’t treat the little issues you have like they are nothing. The evil will seize upon any gaps. Many practitioners have even passed away on account of little things; it really was due to something very minor. That’s because cultivation is something serious, and requires having no gaps. If for a long time you haven’t dealt with those things through cultivation, small as they may be, if you haven’t taken them seriously for a prolonged period of time, then it is a big issue. Many people have passed away on account of such things."
In fact, regardless of how big or small the problem is, are they not all attachments? From this perspective, my so-called ‘small problems’ are not small! For example, I am slow-tempered, but my wife is anxious, so we often have conflicts, during which I am dissatisfied with her. Even if I do not show it, I keep it inside. Despite having a calm expression, resentment builds inside me. I also find fault with my child, thinking he is lazy with no work ethic or self-motivation, rather than letting go and treating others compassionately.
Although I cultivate alone, I firmly believe that I can follow the path Master arranged for me. Regardless of whether I can break through sickness karma tribulations, I firmly believe in one thing: strive to do the three things well, let go of attachments, and believe in Master’s arrangements. My heart should be stable as a rock, and I should treat everything as an illusion. When my xinxing improved, the so-called ‘sickness karma’ illusions seemed distant and more trivial than debris.
Thank you Master!
Thank you fellow practitioners!
Chinese version: https://www.zhengjian.org/node/265213