On Setting Free and Killing

Xiu Zhu

PureInsight | November 10, 2008

[PureInsight.org] Several years before I practiced Falun Gong, my father and grandparents were in the hospital one after another. One time after my father’s operation, my aunt who lived in the countryside gave him two crabs to eat to help him rebuild his health faster. At that time, my family members all believed in Buddhism except for my father and grandparents. We were stunned when we got those two crabs and didn’t know how to deal with them. We thought that we should not do any killing, especially when my father was seriously ill. So my brother set the crabs free – only my mother and I knew this.

Soon, my father was transferred to a regular medical ward. One day, he told my mother that it was very strange because he had dreamt about two crabs for three days in a row, a big one and a small one that had a broken claw. Then my mother told us that those two crabs might have come back to thank my father, and my brother also testified that one of the small crab’s claws was broken from being tied up for too long.

Afterwards, our whole family became Falun Gong practitioners. One time, I brought my husband (he had just obtained the Fa recently) back to my hometown to visit. On the way back, we went to Miaokou to eat some dessert. Because my hometown was close to the sea, we could also buy some seafood at Miaokou. Simply because I didn’t eat seafood for a while, I was a little greedy and got two fried fish. Then I saw some crabs, and my husband ordered six of them because he hadn’t eaten this kind of crab before. After we ordered, I felt regretful because those crabs were alive when we bought them.

That night, I awoke at midnight with a fright because I felt something on my body. I used to have this kind of feeling before I practiced. I knew that some bad things wanted to approach me. At the beginning of my practice, our benevolent Master always helped me enlighten that I could protect myself by chanting the verses for sending forth righteous thoughts, and I seldom had those kinds of feelings any more after a while. However, this time it was very different because I could not chase those bad things away by sending forth righteous thoughts, and it did not even help when I called out Master’s name. The second time those bad things came I touched them and found that they were very hard. I did not know what but I knew I must have done something wrong. I sat up and sent forth righteous thoughts. Then I saw six crabs through my celestial eye. The hard things I had touched were their claws.

I knew Master wanted to enlighten me to that fact that I should not kill lives. I calmed down, looked inside and found that I had a strong attachment to eating and didn’t regard myself as a Dafa practitioner. I apologized to Master, and in my heart, I wanted those crabs to forgive me. I then slept until the following morning.

All lives are intelligent. Those two crabs that were set free by my brother came back to my father in a dream to express their gratitude. But those six crabs were killed because of my attachment. Since then, my husband and I seldom eat meat and we usually buy a piece of fish instead of live seafood.

That is my personal understanding. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.

Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2008/9/24/54986.html

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