PureInsight | May 27, 2013
[PureInsight.org] For the past several months, I only did two out of the Three Things. As a result, the old forces took advantage of it and I developed symptoms of illness. Now I have realized that I need to be serious about cultivation and cannot take it casually anymore.
After looking within, I found that I had been affected by sentimentality. That led to attachments to comfort, struggling, and hatred. In addition, I also felt uncomfortable about the illness symptoms, worrying that others may ask about it given the fact that I was a practitioner. Here I would like to expose my attachments to fame and self-interest so that I can eliminate them.
After finding these human notions and sending forth righteous thoughts, I assumed things would improve since I was following a practitioner’s path. But there was no progress. I realized I still had attachments to pursuit and fear, afraid of being a bad example of a Dafa practitioner.
In “Pass the Deadly Test,” Master said: “Fear can cause one to make mistakes, and fear can cause one to lose a predestined opportunity. Fear is a death trap on a human being's journey toward divinity.” If there are practitioners who have similar illness symptoms like me, I hope they can step out of fear and do the Three Things well by following the path arranged by Master.
I found, however, that my understanding of the attachment to material interest was still shallow. One night, I had a dream that I was walking on a road. I found a school bag and some money along the road. After putting the money in mu pocket, I realized it was wrong because I was a practitioner. Then I returned some of the money but still kept some. When I woke up and thought about it, I knew I had not handled things correctly in recent times. Here is one example.
My aunt is an herbicide vendor and she sometimes asked me to buy herbicide from manufacturers. I did so and kept the free gifts given by the manufacturers. I still felt uneasy about it although I had obtained approval from my aunt to keep the gifts. So I gave some of the gifts—not all of them—back to my aunt, just like I did in the dream. Now I realize what I did was wrong.
In Essentials for Further Advancement, "Cautionary Advice,” Master said: “If you do not want to change your human state and rationally rise to a true understanding of Dafa, you will miss the opportunity. If you do not change the human logic that you, as an ordinary human, have formed deep in your bones over thousands of years, you will be unable to break away from this superficial human shell and reach Consummation.”
Cultivation is indeed serious. I hope other practitioners can learn from my lesson and really look within to walk their path well.
Over the past two days, I read more experience sharing articles from fellow practitioners and had better understandings of my attachments. I also learned that I had to cultivate my xinxing all the time and look within all the time, in order to eliminate my fundamental attachments.
In “Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Switzerland,” Master said: “Yet in their minds they’re still thinking, ‘As long as I do the exercises, Master is sure to clear out my ailments.’ You see, in their minds they’re still thinking, ‘As long as I do the exercises, Master will surely clear out my ailments.’ That bit of thought is still there, buried deep in their minds. They still want me to resolve their health problems, which is to say, they’re still attached to their ailments.”
This is indeed true. I am very grateful for Master’s lectures and fellow practitioners’ experience sharing articles. I hope all practitioners can do the Three Things well.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/114749