PureInsight | June 6, 2013
[PureInsight.org] Honorable Master, the Chinese Lunar New Year is coming soon. Looking back on my cultivation experiences during the past 10 years or more, I am filled with excitement and understandings from the lessons I have learned. During each and every single step that I have made along the path of my cultivation, you have always been there guiding and protecting me. Whenever I was about to run into danger, you would always give me a hint in advance. Sometimes I just remained stubborn, unable to enlighten to your hints, yet you would still keep protecting me, never giving up on me. You never reprimanded me or complained about me. You have been guiding and teaching me like a father would his child, all the while suffering and enduring all of my hardships for me. Master, I can never know how much you have suffered for the sake of all sentient beings, or how enormous the burden is that you carry upon yourself. What I can see is only your grand mercy, grace, and boundless compassion. When I was confused, when I was lost and didn’t know where to go, when I was interfered with by sickness karma, you were always there, giving me hints, asking me to study the Fa seriously until finally I overcame the obstacles and found that the sky was so high and clear, willow trees were waving, and flowers were blossoming. Your hints sometimes would come from a fellow practitioner’s mouth, sometimes I would get them in my dreams, and still, sometimes my child would let me know. Your hints were always very direct; you made sure that I would be able to understand them so that I could get through my tribulations. I sincerely treasure every cultivation step that I have taken.
Once, I was too deeply attached to my own sentiments and I had trouble calming down when doing the exercises. Due to my strong attachment, I felt that the evil forces had started to take advantage of me. As soon as I finished the exercises, I felt “tightness” in my chest, as if something was blocking my heart. I had difficulty with eating during the day time and I had trouble sleeping at night. When I was about to fall asleep, I would always hear the sound of howling wind and I felt both sad and terrified. I couldn’t calm down to study the Fa. I left my house and wandered the streets. When I got back home again, I felt very agitated. I couldn’t bear it anymore. Two days later, I suddenly decided to talk to a fellow practitioner about what I was going through. I approached the practitioner and no sooner had I opened my mouth when the practitioner looked at me sternly and said to me in a very firm tone: “You must send forth righteous thoughts (SFRT) more. The more the better.” I was immediately shocked and quickly realised that Master was using this practitioner’s mouth to give me a hint. Master was worried about my slackness when it came to SFRT. When I got back home, I started to SFRT continuously. The interference was finally eliminated by the end of the day, and I went to bed and had a very good night sleep. I continued to SFRT for another two or three days after that and I recovered very quickly.
When I first learned to practice Falun Dafa I didn’t enlighten to much at all. One day I went to visit my brother. Just before I got to my brother’s house I noticed that some people were digging a very big hole in the ground nearby. Many antiques were found in the hole and people were busy collecting them, hoping to sell them for some quick money. My brother’s wife came out and we joined in with the others and started to pick up stuff from out of the hole. I didn’t keep anything; I gave all of what I had collected to my sister in-law. That night I had a terrible dream. I saw a girl dressed in colorful clothes, although I couldn’t see her face. The girl stood in front of my bed and made some kind of threatening gestures towards me. I was so terrified that I shouted out and woke up startled from the dream; my heart was beating like crazy, and I had goose bumps all over my body. It was very clear to me that something related to the antique relics that I had collected that day was not happy about me. I got up and turned around and saw Master’s book Zhuan Falun and I felt very much relieved. However, I still had trouble falling asleep after that, so I opened Zhuan Falun and looked at Master’s picture; Master was looking at me with a smile. Tears filled my eyes. At that moment a phrase popped into my mind: “Calm as water, calm as water.” I then began to murmur the phrase and very soon I fell asleep and woke up the next morning.
I’ve encountered many incredible and miraculous things during my cultivation. Master has been letting me feel or even see such things every now and then. I remember once I was detained by the evil CCP when I was clarifying the truth about Falun Dafa to the public. After I was released my brother-in-law was very angry with me—he had been fooled by the CCP’s slander against Falun Dafa and he claimed that I had ruined the family’s reputation. He told me that he was going to kill me and my daughter. I comforted my daughter and told her not to worry about anything. Just when my daughter and I were calming down my brother-in-law came to our house. He was very drunk and started to threaten me and my daughter again, shouting loudly and saying that he wanted to smash the kitchen, the TV, etc. However, even though he appeared very aggressive and evil he didn’t dare to touch a single item in the house. He simply kept yelling and jumping around like crazy. I started to SFRT and shouted at him to stop; I was not in the least bit afraid of him. Then our neighbours came over and helped drag him away. That night I couldn’t fall asleep until it was almost midnight. After I fell asleep I suddenly felt that something was moving around in my stomach, and then out of nowhere I saw people approaching me. These people were crystal clear; it was impossible to describe how clean they appeared. They were wearing light blue clothes and all were wearing blue masks as well. I could only see their beautiful eyes. They all seemed to have attire similar to medical professionals. I noticed that they were busy trying to do an operation on my stomach, passing tools around in a serious manner. Very soon I felt that something was moving around in my stomach even more violently. I could hear a weak voice from within my stomach and it was shouting for help and asking me to open my mouth so that it could get out. I opened my mouth subconsciously and woke up at the same time. My mouth was still open and my stomach was not churning anymore. I looked around and everything was so quiet as if nothing had happened. I realized that an evil spectre from my brother-in-law must have entered my body when I was shouting loudly at him. The gods or celestial beings were being instructed by Master to remove that spectre from my body in another dimension.
Without the constant guidance and protection from merciful Master I am afraid that I could not have made it through my tribulations; I could not have made it this far along my cultivation path, as my path has had many kinds of distractions and obstacles. Even though I have let go of many things in the ordinary society I have gained many more through my cultivation in Falun Dafa. Nothing from this world can compare with what I have gained from my cultivation. Master has already illustrated very clearly many many heavenly secrets that ordinary people are not allowed to know. It is impossible for me to list each and every instance of Master guiding and protecting me, even if I spent days and nights and wrote thousands upon thousands of words. In order to make sure that practitioners can make it to the very end, in order to make sure that sentient beings will be saved, Master has already given everything to us. My writing ability is poor, and I find it very hard to describe how grateful I am to Master even though I have tried to use every bit of my wisdom. I will try my best to fulfil my prehistoric vow. There are still many things that I have not yet enlightened to and there are still many aspects of myself that I have yet to perfect. I still have many attachments, such as the mentality of showing off, lack of strong will, the inability to control fear, and so on. I will work hard to overcome these obstacles; I will turn my attachments into benevolent actions toward people to help save them.
The Chinese lunar New Year is coming, and I send my wishes to Honorable Master from the other side of the Pacific Ocean. I wish Master a happy new year and I hope that everything goes well!
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/116711