PureInsight | December 14, 2010
[PureInsight.org] When waking up from sleep one night, I had a feeling similar to that of a heavy “cold” and my forehead was hot. As a practitioner who has practiced for more than 10 years, I did not pay much attention to it, thinking it was insignificant. I did not look within, either. However, by the next day, the situation had worsened. I became skinny and my eyes looked sunken in. There was pain in my head and my waist. I was unable to lie down, stand, or eat. Worst of all was the pain in my head, which made me unable to study the Fa or do the exercises. My father, who is not a practitioner, asked me to take medicine, saying Master did not prohibit taking medicine. My mother, a fellow practitioner, stood by my side to send forth righteous thoughts. After two days without eating, amid the pain, I felt as if my life was close to an end.
By then, I realized the seriousness of this matter and began to look within. I saw that I had not been cultivating well for a period of time. In particular, I was absent-minded when studying the Fa or sending forth righteous thoughts. I could not keep doing the exercises, either. I realized that, due to my slacking off, I had not been able to keep up with the progress of Master’s Fa-rectification. As a result, the part inside me that had not cultivated well was facing elimination. My physical condition was the reflection of that situation in this dimension. Meanwhile, I was clear that it was not permissible for evil beings to take advantage of my shortcomings to further persecute me. Therefore, in my heart I was telling Master, “I will endure that which I should forebear. However, I strongly oppose those elements that interfere with my Fa-study or doing the three things.” I also asked Master for help. I then began to send forth righteous thoughts. When it was time for sending forth righteous thoughts globally at noon, despite my omissions, I added one thought of opposing all vicious elements that persecuted me. I felt myself immersed in peace and harmony. Then, I saw some beings—probably old forces—appearing in front of me. I sent out gong in the form of countless blue ribbons to destroy them. Then, I found a gigantic revolving Falun that collected and destroyed them. At that time, I felt my dimension became much clearer. When I opened my eyes, I found that half an hour had already passed. By then, my “cold” symptoms had magically disappeared. However, the pain in my head and on my body still continued. I continued to send forth righteous thoughts, and I knew Master was helping me. The next day, after sending forth righteous thoughts at 3 o’clock, I fell asleep. Upon waking up, I found the pain in my head and on my body had stopped. Realizing that the pain had been so severe that I could barely sleep, I knew Master was enduring it for me and helped me to resolve the tribulation.
From this, I came to understand that a practitioner has to be clear on the relationship between himself/herself and Master, Dafa, as well as sentient beings. In fact, the old forces are not clear on their relationship with Master and Dafa. That is why they dare to interfere with the Fa-rectification and persecute Dafa practitioners. If we are unable to have a clear understanding of this, the evil can easily take advantage of this and cause unnecessary losses.
I have made mistakes in the past and left stains on my cultivation path. However, this cannot be an excuse for the evil to persecute me since I am looked after by Master. In my mind, no matter how others look down upon me in the cosmos, as long as Master accepts me, I will follow Master all the way through. It does not matter what plans other beings have; only Master’s words count. Amid the tribulations, we practitioners have to have faith in Master and the Fa. When we follow Master without any hesitation, that allows Master to resolve the interference for us.
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/zj/articles/2010/12/4/70070.html