PureInsight | January 21, 2018
Greetings fellow practitioners!
Illness karma tribulations are a very heavy topic because seeing some practitioners lose their bodies to illness demons is very distressing. I wanted to discuss my understanding and experience regarding this matter. I also hope that more practitioners will participate in discussions so that fellow practitioners undergoing illness karma tribulations can see things from multiple perspectives, look for their hidden attachments, cultivate them away, strengthen their belief in Master and the Fa, walk the cultivation path righteously, and avoid any unnecessarily losses.
Next I would like to share an experience of being interfered by illness demons. One day I was sitting in the passenger seat of my company’s van. I was chatting with the driver as he drove when all of a sudden I felt that my heart was in pain, so I clutched my chest. I could feel my heart pounding quickly with great force, which was very uncomfortable. I thought my posture was not good, so I shifted positions, but the symptoms did not abate. I told myself that it would be over soon and endured it. The driver asked me if something was wrong, to which I responded that my heart was beating very rapidly, which was very uncomfortable. Because I did not have a history of heart problems and the driver was a friend of many years and knew this, he was not worried. However, my symptoms became so severe that I could practically hear my heart thumping and my body was very stressed, so I thought I was having a heart attack. How could I have a heart attack? I did not even know this about myself. Had I known, I should have just kept a bottle of quick-acting heart pills in the car.
As soon as this thought arose, my symptoms worsened. I felt like my heart would fail at any moment. My face became very pale, and I was sweating profusely. I weakly muttered, “Please stop the car.” When the driver saw me, he suddenly became scared and found a place to stop. When he saw me getting out, he came over to help me. I waved my hands in dismissal and hoarsely said, “Don’t touch me.” I felt as if I would immediately die if anyone touched me. I slowly moved to the back of the car and lay on the ground because I did not have enough energy to sit. My heart was still racing. I felt as if I was on the verge between life and death. It was then that I thought, “Falun Dafa is good! Zhen Shan Ren is good!”
From the onset of symptoms to when I collapsed, I did not realize I was a cultivator. At the time I had not cultivated for long and was very much like an ordinary person, so I rarely tried to enlighten. Whenever I encountered something, I rarely used a cultivator’s perspective to look at the issue. I always thought they were natural coincidences. Because I neglected to enlighten to small tests, they piled up into a massive and difficult test. Looking inwards often is very important for cultivators. Constantly using “Zhen Shan Ren” to measure oneself, looking inwards more, and eliminating more attachments would also make passing tests simpler. Master said in “Self-Evident is the Heart” from Hong Yin Volume II:
“Light are the boats, quick the travel
with attachments cast aside
But the ocean proves hard to cross
if human thoughts weigh one down”
Anyway as I lay there feeling as if I were on the verge of death, I kept thinking, “Falun Dafa is good! Zhen Shan Ren is good!” As I recited this, I felt my heart calming down. A few moments later, I was able to sit up. Though I had not completely recovered, I felt like it was bearable. After seeing me sit up, the driver asked how I was doing. I said I was doing much better and asked him to take me to the hospital. He took me to the hospital, and I told him I needed to go to the emergency department. He helped me get off near the emergency department. After crossing one lane, the emergency department was in sight, but I suddenly could not walk. I told the driver that I could not stand and had to sit. There happened to be a short wall nearby, so he helped me sit. After sitting down, I clutched my chest with one hand as I looked up at the emergency department. The emergency department was right in front of me, but I could not make it. Was it Master not letting me go in? I thought of what Master said in Zhuan Falun, “One of our students went to the hospital and had several syringe needles bend on him, and the last vial even squirted out, but the needle still couldn’t go in. Then he caught on, ‘Wait, I’m a cultivator! I don’t want any more injections.’ Only then did he think not to get injections.”
As I thought, my insides were like a roaring volcano. A wave of nausea overcame me as I started vomiting. When I felt as if I had vomited everything inside and had nothing else to vomit, my body suddenly felt refreshed. The illness demon that was interfering with me for several hours vanished in an instant. I looked up at the emergency department and told myself, “Do you still need to go to the emergency department this time? Everything is better now, so you don’t need to go this time! You refused to follow the advice of not needing a doctor and came to the emergency department, yet in the end the symptoms vanished, and you had no reason to go.” I told myself that I was better and did not need to go to the emergency department and could go home! I told the driver that I was fine, did not need to see a doctor, and could go home. The driver was very surprised and asked skeptically whether I was really fine. I told him I was really fine and could go home as I walked briskly to the car.
On the way home thinking about what had just transpired, there was still some lingering fear. I felt as if I had taken a trip to the gates of hell, so I thought to myself that it would be safer to keep a bottle of quick-acting heart pills in the car. I told the driver I wanted to stop by the pharmacy to pick up some quick-acting heart pills. After visiting two pharmacies that both did not have any pills, I suddenly realized that this meant I should not buy them. I told myself, “Wow! You don’t need to see the doctor, but now you want to buy pills? Do you have an illness or not?” Master said in Zhuan Falun, “When you feel worse, it means that, ‘when something reaches the extreme it reverses,’ and your whole body will be purified. It has to be completely purified. The root of your health problem has been plucked out now, and only that little bit of black qi is left, coming out on its own, so that you have a little hardship and go through some difficulty. If you didn’t bear anything it really wouldn’t work”.
At that time I felt very ashamed and thought that my enlightenment quality was horrible. I cut corners in my faith towards Master and the Fa, treating illness illusions as real illnesses and almost making a huge mistake. I am very grateful for Master for helping me eliminate karma and felt that Master’s Law Bodies are right by disciples, watching over us and giving us hints. That illness episode was also a wakeup call, letting me realize that not cutting corners in my faith towards Master and the Fa is truly important. Especially when undergoing illness karma tribulations, only truly believing in Master and the Fa can one realize the illness is an illusion and believe that one does not have any illness. Of course then one would not be at home sick and would be able to do the three things. Through doing the three things, studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and improving your xinxing, the demons will no longer be able to reach or persecute you. Illness illusions will naturally vanish.
Some practitioners are unable to calm their minds to send forth righteous thoughts and eliminate evil during times of illness karma tribulation. This is also one reason that illness karma persists. Some practitioners are so severely interfered by illness demons that they say, “I am suffering so much, I might as well so and so.” When I hear this, I am very sad. What we bear is only a small portion of our tribulation. Master helps us endure most of the tribulation. Master is enduring massive tribulations for countless beings! Is Master suffering? Master said in “To the Original State” from Hong Yin Volume III:
“His True Body is youthful with a boundless lifespan
Beyond all space and time, He governs cosmic laws
He teaches Heaven’s Way to rescue the firmament
He alone has borne the karmic debts of all beings
The abundant debts formed huge ordeals
His hair turned grey and His body was harmed
When Fa-rectification is fulfilled, His Divine self will show
His immense grace shall awe the Ten Directions”
As a Dafa disciple, how can we give up so easily? After tens of millions of years of waiting, innumerable reincarnations, and countless hardships, we have finally obtained the Fa today; we can finally assist Master in Fa-rectification; we can finally fulfill our vows. I hope as the once so strong-willed you can be strong until the end! I hope we can be diligent together and return with Master!
Because the events recounted above were from a long time ago, some may not have been described as being very diligent. Please point out anything inappropriate!
Thank you Master!
Thank you fellow practitioners!
Translated from: http://www.zhengjian.org/node/240680